Paranoid Love Affair 98
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 98

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Hyerim is innocent.
She never had bad intentions for Yun-woo.
It was not Hyerim, but Yunwoo’s foolish expectations and actions that caused bad results… … Yun-woo had already made such a conclusion in his mind.
Nevertheless, it is absurd for Yoon-woo to continue resenting or hating Hye-rim.
I could think of that in my head.
But, nevertheless, Yoon-woo still feels that when he sees Hye-rim, his stomach is cold and full of heavy stones.
In Yun-woo’s world, Hyerim seems to be some kind of mythical monster, Basilisk or Medusa.
It’s because if you accidentally make eye contact with her, your hands and feet will be stiff and your lips and tongue will be paralyzed.
And when I turn around, my stomach hurts, whether the hardened stomach is secreting strong stomach acid too late to digest the stones in the stomach.
Even if Hye-eun liked Yun-woo and Ji-eun liked Yun-woo, there was no change in Yoon-woo’s heart when she met Hye-rim.
Why?
Why is it so difficult to treat Hyerim normally?
After hearing Ji-eun’s words and entering the room, Yun-woo closed his eyes and thought for a while after talking to Hye-eun.
It wasn’t like this until I found out that Hyerim was the same Hyerim 10 years ago.
For a brief moment, he even thought that Hyerim was a kind person like Jieun.
However, on the way home after seeing Midsoma, after hearing the words from Hyerim, Hyerim’s existence in Yunwoo’s mind was only perceived as very frightening and terrifying.
The truth is, on that day 10 years ago, the things that hurt Yun-woo the most were not the time spent in the washing machine, the wounds he got from falling from the top, nor the children in the class who cursed at Yun-woo.
In nightmares or hallucinations, the swearing of parents, the sound of washing machines, and the voices of children pointing fingers at Yun-woo, at the end, all turn into Hye-rim’s cries.
That was the most painful scene for Yun-woo.
Standing in front of him, everything that makes up Yun-woo’s existence seems to crumble.
Yoon-woo seems to be saying that he should not even step into the world where Hye-rim lives.
You will feel as if you are a mosquito hovering around a mosquito net.
Even now, when I see Hyerim, that scene comes to mind.
Then, both the value of Yun-woo that Hye-eun acknowledged and the value of Yun-woo that Ji-eun acknowledged seem to disappear in an instant.
After that, Yun-woo will go back inside again.
After all, this was Yunwoo. It was said that the value of a human named Yoon Woo was that much.
However, it is not wise to continue to adhere to this attitude no matter what Yun-woo’s heart is.
Because it makes Ji-eun uncomfortable.
Ji-eun has given Yun-woo so much, and he cannot repay it, but he should not be stubborn and ruin Ji-eun’s closest human relationship.
Although I asked Ji-eun a childish question about who would stand on the side of Hyerim and Yun-woo if Hye-rim and Yun-woo continued to fight, if Yoon-woo actually splits the relationship between Hye-rim and Ji-eun, Yun-woo will not be able to overcome the guilt. .
Ji-eun’s liking for Yun-woo doesn’t mean losing a friend named Hye-rim.
Yoon-woo, who thought about that up to that point, decided not to show an uncomfortable attitude to the outside, no matter how uncomfortable he was.
What would be particularly difficult?
All you need to do is say good-bye, give good answers, and sometimes throw out words that don’t have any content.
For example, ‘It’s really cold today.’
So the next morning, when I met Hyerim in the Liberal Arts Center lounge on Monday in the first class, Yunwoo spoke to Hyerim first.
In fact, it had to be done over the weekend.
It was something I could have said yesterday when I sent a message to Hyerim.
But Yoon-woo didn’t do that.
I didn’t want to make the conversation continue in a situation where I didn’t have to talk to Hyerim.
“Is your body okay?”
“… … .”
“… … Hyerim?”
The Liberal Arts Center lounge is always full of people studying or playing team games, but it was not like that in the first class on Monday.
So, no matter how small Yoon-woo’s voice was, there was no way that it wouldn’t have reached Hye-rim’s ears.
Hyerim stayed silent for a while with her head bowed even after hearing Yunwoo’s words, and only then lifted her head slightly when Yunwoo called her name again.
“… … Huh. it’s okay.”
Hyerim’s face was as beautiful as usual, but as of today, there was no life in her expression.
So was the voice.
“yet… … I don’t think it’s okay? Aren’t you supposed to go to the hospital? Even now… … .”
“… … Do you want me to go?”
“uh?”
“You don’t like being with me?”
“No, it’s not like that. It’s just that you don’t seem to have any power… … Let’s go to the hospital. I will go with you.”
Hyerim’s condition was obviously strange.
It was difficult physically as well as mentally.
To the extent of showing such a sharp reaction to Yun-woo’s words of regards, which are not very important… … .
“Are you worried about me?”
“Huh.”
“really?”
“uh? Yes.”
“… … lie.”
Today, Hyerim was strangely nervous.
Yun-woo had a hard time responding to Hye-rim’s reaction, but there was no way out of this position.
Besides, in order for Hye-rim and Ji-eun to maintain their relationship, Yun-woo has to have a seemingly good relationship with Hye-rim.
Therefore, it was a duty for Yoon-woo to relieve Hye-rim’s mood right here.
“I’m not lying.”
“Over the weekend… … Did you have fun with Ji-eun unnie?”
“uh? Why all of a sudden… … a hospital?”
“it’s okay. I don’t want to go to the hospital… … What did you and I do yesterday?”
“… … I studied for the exam.”
“Other than that? Didn’t you just study all day?”
“I didn’t do anything. just eat rice… … Watching a drama at night… … .”
“drama? What did you see?”
“Sherlock.”
“How many seasons?”
“uh… … It was the second time.”
“Have you seen season 1 already? With Ji-eun?”
“Perhaps it will.”
“… … what did you eat? what about lunch? dinner?”
Hyerim was weird.
Yun-woo couldn’t figure out how Hye-rim was feeling and what she wanted to say.
But, at least, that he wasn’t asking because he was really curious about the lunch menu or dinner menu, even the ignorant Yun-woo could know.
“Hyerim? … … what’s the matter?”
“Without me… … Was it good?”
“… … .”
“No… … Was it good that I wasn’t there? Did you enjoy it more without me? Without me, it’s better to be alone with Ji-eun unnie… … .”
“Hyerim… … .”
“… … sorry. It was the exam period, so I became sensitive and said nonsense. Forget it.”
“no.”
Come to think of it, wouldn’t Hyerim feel like she lost Ji-eun to Yun-woo?
If Yun-woo was a normal human, if he had never been hospitalized by swallowing medicine, he would still be living in Yun-woo’s room, and Ji-eun would have spent the weekend taking care of Hye-rim.
If you think that Yoon-woo is the reason Ji-eun isn’t by Hye-rim’s side when she’s alone while she’s sick, then Hye-rim must be very annoyed with Yoon-woo.
Thinking like that, Yoon-woo felt sorry for Hye-rim.
There are moments in the world when you have to lie and say things you don’t even want to say, and Yoon-woo thought that this is the moment right now.
“It’s better without you, it can’t be. You must be there.”
“… … Do you really think so?”
“Ji-eun’s older sister was very worried about Hye-rim. Of course I… … Anyway, I can’t do it without you. To Ji-eun noona, you are the most important friend.”
“For you?”
“uh?”
“Other than Ji-eun, what kind of person am I to you?”
Yoon-woo was speechless for a moment.
What do you mean right?
To be honest, I can’t pour out what’s in my heart.
I can’t say that you are the nightmare of my life, the person I never want to see again.
The answer should not be too late.
So, in the end, Yun-woo chose a word that had come out of Hye-rim’s mouth sometime as a word to define her relationship with Hye-rim.
“… … friend.”
The answer was set.
The relationship Hyerim thinks of, should not be said above it, nor should it be said below it.
As for whether that was the correct answer, a faint smile appeared on Hyerim’s lips as she heard Yunwoo’s words.
Seeing Hyerim’s expression relaxed, Yunwoo was able to calm her heart a little.
“I’m glad. If you think so.”
In fact, Hyerim knew it too.
That Yunwoo’s words are false.
I was happy with it though.
permission has been obtained
Now, for a moment, Yun-woo said that it is okay to pretend to be close and have a conversation, and to play a role-play full of lies.
“There you are, Yoon-woo. we… … When this semester is over and I’m in my second year… … .”
“Huh?”
“Then why don’t we join the club together?”
“… … Circles? what?”
“Let’s just sign up for a new one anywhere. Even Ji-eun unnie doesn’t seem to show her face in clubs these days anyway, so if we ask to do it together, won’t she go anywhere?”
“I don’t even know what kind of club it is.”
“How about a climbing club? They also built a rock wall at Hojeong Gymnasium, and it seems like they are active there. If you buy the rock shoes, you can do it at school without any extra money. Yunwoo You have long arms and legs, so you will probably be able to do better than others soon.”
“If that’s the case, wouldn’t Ji-eun noona hate it? I guess I’m using my body… … .”
“Ji-eun unnie has a light body, so she’ll do well, right?”
“is it? But that… … Actually, I’m in a club… … I’m afraid of a lot of people… … .”
“Then let’s go just the three of us. Actually, I’ve been going to the bouldering gym for a very long time, haven’t I? From middle school… … So I can tell you everything. If you go early in the morning, there won’t be many people in Hojeong Gymnasium. how?”
“If the author likes her older sister… … .”
“And again… … Next year, the three of us will go to festivals together, and to Goyeonjeon… … .”
“festival? me, i’m a little… … A place with so many people… … .”
“Isn’t it better? If there are not thirty or forty people, but hundreds or thousands of people, the person next to you doesn’t really care, right? who will see our faces You will never see it.”
“Well… … But I don’t know cheering songs, and I don’t sleep too much… … .”
“I don’t know much about cheerleaders except for a few. When I first learned to sing at Cheer OT, I gave out a lyric book, but they didn’t give me time to sing it. You just need to scream in moderation. You can lip sync. What is oversleeping… … I think you’ll be right even if you wear mine… … .”
“… … .”
“Anyway, are you going to do that next year? Promise?”
“uh… … Well… … .”
“Promise me, won’t you?”
“okay. let’s do that… … .”
“And, it seems that you are constantly worrying about the cost of living. Would you like to work part-time with me during vacation? It’s hard to find tutoring here, but I heard that there are quite a few if you look for them in Hapjeong-dong. Otherwise, Cafe Alba or Bakery Alvara… … To pay off the debt you owe me… … .”
After class, Hyerim kept talking about it without even thinking about reading the book until she met Ji-eun after class and said hello and went to the economics class.
Still, I’m glad that Hyerim’s expression was released.
It’s nice to have a slight smile on his face.
The flow of the conversation wasn’t in a good direction for Yun-woo, but just by confirming that Hye-rim’s mood had improved, Yun-woo was quite relieved.
Next year feels like a long way off.
At that time, I have no idea what kind of life Yunwoo, Hyerim, and Jieun will lead.
Part-time work during vacation is a pretty good story, but Yoon-woo didn’t really want to work with Hye-rim.
Maybe by then, what excuse will come to mind?
Wouldn’t Ji-eun or Hye-eun, who will be by Yun-woo’s side even then, help?
It’s amazing.
Not so long ago, just thinking about the future made my heart race because I was choked and anxious, but now, just thinking that there is someone to share that future with, my heart sinks quickly.
Even the uncomfortable feeling of being with Hyerim became something that could be tolerated just by looking at Jieun’s face for a few minutes.
So today, walking side by side with Hyerim wasn’t too difficult.
‘It was fun.’
However, Yun-woo did not know Hye-rim’s thoughts at all.
‘It’s fun just to talk like this, but if we really go to festivals together and work part-time, then it would be really fun, wouldn’t it? However… … .’
Climbing, festival, albany, how do I turn it down later?
What excuse should I give?
All the worries that arose in Yun-woo’s mind were useless.
Because, the person who talked about such a plan had no intention of carrying out that plan.
‘I will be satisfied with this. It’s like talking about things that you can’t actually do for a while now… … .’
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 98

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