Paranoid Love Affair 90
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 90

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“Oh… … He doesn’t have that side. I’d be very careful these days though… … .”
Ji-eun easily agreed with Yun-woo’s words, but Saebyeol seemed to be unable to do so.
The biggest difference between Saebyeol and Hyerim was that.
When Yoon-woo refuses the invitation with various excuses, Saebyeol immediately understands and turns her back on him.
Then he goes back to his group and chats happily again.
The impression that Yun-woo received from such a Saebyeol appearance was always the same.
I had no choice but to think that Saebyeol was just asking a simple polite question, that she didn’t really want Yun-woo to comply with her invitation, that she was approaching Yun-woo for self-satisfaction and to make herself stand out.
It’s a lesson I’ve learned 10 years ago that you shouldn’t have any expectations.
But Hyerim was much more tenacious than Saebyeol.
When Yoon-woo gives an excuse, he says, ‘How about this? If that doesn’t work, how about there?’, and he pushes Yun-woo until he can’t remember the proper words of refusal.
For example, if you give an excuse that it’s hard to get along because you don’t have enough living expenses, Saebyeol will say, ‘Yeah? Then there’s nothing you can do See you next time when you have free time.’ So how about snacks? Isn’t it good value for money?’ He urges Yun-woo once again.
No matter what Hye-rim’s inner thoughts were, unlike Saebyeol, Hye-rim’s purpose was to make her proposal to Yun-woo come true.
But in fact, it would be more common to act like Saebyeol.
‘I don’t have any living expenses right now… … .’ How many instances of this refusal would be straightforwardly true?
There may be complicated circumstances.
There may be reasons why it is difficult to say.
It’s just that I don’t feel like it that day, but it’s not polite to say it like that, so I might just slap you around.
It may be desirable in view of the prevailing social norms not to ask deeply about it, and not to push it any further.
It would be a natural procedure to keep the distance of human relationships that the other person allows, and to slowly circle around and wait for the distance to get closer.
However, Hyerim and Yun Woo were far from social norms.
Yun-woo had no intention of narrowing the distance with other people, and Hye-rim was in a hurry and could not afford to wait.
Without understanding their personal peculiarities, their relationship would of course look very strange from the public’s point of view.
It was especially difficult for people like Saebyeol to understand.
Classmates, seniors, club members… … How many people have made new friends with Saebyeol after coming to college?
The number of people who may be over one hundred… … None of them acted like Yunwoo.
Saebyeol didn’t even think that it was wrong to get along with so many people.
“What do you mean? How is Jo Hye-rim different from me?”
“that… … Isn’t this an afterthought? A little bit… … Anyway, there are some stubborn corners.”
“Yes? What others are saying about the iron wall… … How stubborn are you?”
“Pushing people until they get the answer they want… … there is such a thing Sometimes I do too.”
“… … No, but did I? How difficult it is to come to talk to me every day while being rejected over and over again… … .”
“that… … It would have been completely different from Yoon-woo’s point of view. Yunwoo thought you weren’t really talking to him to get to know him.”
“Yes? What do you mean?”
“I thought you were just asking a polite question. It’s empty.”
“It’s empty words… … Have you really been thinking that way? Yoon-woo Lee?”
Saebyeol, who had been accusing her before maintaining only the form of a question, was now properly seeking an answer from Yun-woo.
“uh? uh… … .”
“why?”
“… … .”
“Say. Did you really think that saying hello to you every day, pretending to know you, and asking you to play with me was just polite?”
“Huh… … .”
“Does it make sense? How can you think that way? What kind of idiot behaves like that?”
“… … .”
“Tell me, I won’t be angry. I’m really curious Why did you think so? What made you feel that way? Was my tone strange?”
In the empty lecture hall, only Ji Eun-do, Sae-byeol, and Yun-woo’s mouths were staring intently.
Seeing that the noisy hallway has become quiet, it is likely that the time for class to begin has long passed.
Yunwoo and Saebyeol have a practical English class this time.
As far as Yun-woo knows, Ji-eun also has a class in this class.
However, none of these people were saying, ‘We have to go to class, so let’s talk about it later.’
Now, the cause of this situation is probably Yun-woo.
Because the dull Yun-woo didn’t think deeply and act, it touched Saebyeol’s self-esteem.
If, as a result, not only Yun-woo, but also Saebyeol and Ji-eun’s attendance scores were damaged, it is also Yun-woo’s responsibility.
In fact, the foreign professor in charge of the practical English class is a fairly broad-minded person, so he promised at the beginning of the semester that he would skip 3 tardies and 1 absence for any reason.
That’s why Saebyeol must have come to pour out her feelings for Yun-woo with her mind set like this.
In the end, it means that the only person who actually suffers now is Ji-eun.
Ji-eun is the biggest victim of this situation Yoon-woo caused.
The risk of grades being lowered, the risk of being hostile to Saebyeol and sacrificing personal relationships… … Even for Ji-eun, who has endured such a thing and stood steadfastly in this place, Yun-woo had to speak up.
The story had to end quickly so that Ji-eun could return to the classroom.
“Because you have no reason to want to meet me.”
“uh? What are you talking about?”
“You have friends who talk and play happily every day, don’t you? But who would like me to be in there?”
“Everyone would have loved it. How much everyone… … .”
“I can’t. Had I been there, it would have only made it awkward.”
No one will talk to Yun-woo.
Why is he here? It was very easy to imagine myself sitting in a corner seat with such a gaze.
“Because it’s not! And… … If such a place is uncomfortable… … You could have just met me!”
“why? So what do you gain?”
“uh? It’s an advantage… … .”
Yun-woo somehow felt like he was facing Hye-rim from the 4th grade of elementary school.
how many times did you think
If you could go back to that class once again, what would you do?
If Hyerim had said at that time, ‘Yoon-woo, go with me and play with the kids!’, Yoon-woo would have made the mistake of following Hye-rim.
If so, how sad would it have been?
Even if they went to the place where they chatted happily, nothing would have changed.
Yun-woo would have become an invisible person.
No one, not even Hyerim, who spoke to Yun-woo, wanted Yun-woo.
So obviously… … I should have thought this way back then.
I had to say it this way. Just like I’m doing to Saebyeol now… … .
“What are you talking about? What benefits do you find in meeting college classmates?”
What are your college motives?
People find benefits no matter who they meet.
The desired gain is not necessarily in the form of money.
It is the same even between parents and children.
Is parental love unconditional love? Really?
Do parents really want their children to be happy?
Invested time, effort, money… … Don’t you want your children to bring that much output?
it’s all delusion
This world is full of deception.
As if everything in the world is a transaction, as if nothing else, people deceive others and themselves as if there is a noble value that surpasses it.
“Did you tell me? It wouldn’t be fun to be with you.”
“It’s not for you to decide, is it? Everyone is interested in you… … .”
“There’s no reason to be interested in me because I don’t talk, I don’t get along with people, and I’m stuck in a corner.”
“No, what are you… … .”
“I know you are a good person. As I was walking alone like that, I felt pity… … Still, I’m comfortable being alone.”
“… … You are a really weird kid.”
There was no longer any sign of anger on Saebyeol’s face.
Instead, a look of absurdity and annoyance filled his face.
“Why do you guess and confirm my intentions on your own terms? Then, as you said, I was just going to talk to you because you looked so pitiful? You don’t really want to come to the meeting? You repeated that for nearly two semesters? Does that make sense? What kind of damage is that?”
“… … .”
“Yes. You’re right, I was wrong. It’s not just a girl chasing pretty girls… … Were you just a psychopath?”
“Hey, Moon Sae-byul!”
“That’s Okay. I’ll just go. boring bastard. I can’t get it to burst. Why are you dating him? No matter how good you look, you still feel like that?”
“No, what are you talking about… … .”
“I never knew. Is Yoon-Woo Lee such a guy? … I won’t talk to you any more. I’ll just be absent, so don’t worry about me and do whatever you want whether you’re late or you’re absent. under… … I was just wasting my emotions on this fat bastard for nothing.”
After saying that, Saebyeol turned around and left without looking at Ji-eun or Yun-woo, making harsh footsteps and running out of the classroom.
Wouldn’t this be a successful conversation?
It ended much sooner than expected.
Besides, Saebyeol got tired of Yunwoo and said that she wouldn’t talk to me anymore… … It’s a pretty good ending for Yoon-woo.
I looked at the clock in front of me and it was 5:15.
From outside, the voice of the professor in the classroom next door could be heard faintly.
The last class class starts at 5 o’clock, so even if you enter now, you will be able to follow the contents of the class.
If it is a class that calls for attendance, it is better to be late than to be absent.
A professor who calls attendance at the end of class may not do any harm.
Yun-woo had no intention of going to class.
But the author is different.
This time, Ji-eun is an innocent victim.
It was supposed to be a place that only Yun-woo had to swear and finish, but Ji-eun had to get involved and he was late for class.
So, I have to tell him to go to class.
So that you don’t take any more damage because of Yun-woo.
“I’m sorry, sister, let’s go to class… … .”
“… … .”
“uh… … sister?”
“… … Are you okay, Yun-woo?”
Yoon-woo couldn’t help but be confused.
As Saebyeol left the classroom, Ji-eun turned her head to Yun-woo.
Then, Yoon-woo’s eyes caught on… … Ji-eun’s reddish face, tears flowing down her cheeks quietly… … .
Obviously, it wasn’t like that until Saebyeol left.
Ji-eun wasn’t like that when she quarreled with Saebyeol while taking Yun-woo’s side… … .
“Sister, why… … .”
“He’s really… … Do I really have to hurt you like that? even though you do not know it that well… … Without knowing how good Yunwoo is… … .”
Where the hell did the voice that had been yelling at Saebyeol a while ago went, and Ji-eun’s voice toward Yun-woo was infinitely sweet and soft.
“I… … it’s okay.”
Yoon-woo could no longer look at his watch.
This is because Ji-eun, who approached Yun-woo, blocked Yun-woo’s view and stood right in front of the desk.
“More than that, I have a class for my sister. It was late because of me, but even now… … .”
“It is again. Is that a problem now?”
Then Ji-eun reaches out to Yun-woo… … Ji-eun’s hand gently brushing Yun-woo’s hair was completely different from this morning when she was drying her hair with a hair dryer.
As she treated Ji-eun’s touch like that, Yoon-woo’s feelings were not the same shame as this morning, and Ji-eun’s feelings in that touch… … It was different this morning.
“Your heart is more important. It must have been heartbreaking… … It’s not your fault… … There’s no reason for you to listen to him like that… … .”
“… … Nope. I don’t care at all.”
“How can you not care? It’s natural for anyone to feel bad when someone swears and yells in front of them… … still there Don’t take anything he said into your heart. You’re the kindest and purest kid, I don’t know… … .”
It always happened.
Both inside and outside the house, Yoon-woo being criticized for not knowing what it is… … .
“It’s a bit frustrating, but… … You are kind, caring and… … .”
But that had never happened.
Someone approached Yun-woo like that and stroked his head so that he wouldn’t be heartbroken… … You said it wasn’t Yoon-woo’s fault… … .
“You say you date a woman just for her looks? I guess he doesn’t know that. Even if it seems that men don’t like women’s height, they really don’t like women this small. It’s not that I and Hyerim are tied together… … Heck, he’s tall too. I was caught up in a sense of inferiority needlessly… … I’m very hungry. Is not it?”
“Your sister is pretty too… … .”
“Yes? So, are you really dating me for my looks? because i’m pretty Then thank you rather than me.”
“… … .”
“He doesn’t respond again… … Anyway, would you like to get up and go for a walk? At this time during the exam period, there will be few people.”
“How about class? Because of my sister… … .”
“it’s okay. Why is this for you? Coming in here and fighting with him, I did everything I wanted… … do not worry. He is a professor who watches the attendance at least once. And I’ve never missed this class so far. Don’t you want to go to class too?”
“… … Huh.”
“Then let’s go. Get your bag and hurry up.”
“Sister, maybe… … Maybe your sister… … .”
“Huh?”
“… … no. thanks.”
Maybe the author was a rabbit.
Maybe it was Hye-eun who protected Yun-woo’s heart.
Otherwise, could there be another person in the world who embraces Yun-woo’s heart like this?
With that thought in mind, I almost asked if my sister was Hye-eun.
I can’t… … .
Ever since Ji-eun put her hand on Yun-woo’s head, Yoon-woo has been giving a lot of strength to the forehead and the bridge of the nose. It felt like I was going to cry if I put my mind to it even a little bit.
It was strange.
I didn’t feel like crying when Saebyeol yelled at Yunwoo and poured criticism on him, but I don’t know why I feel like crying when Jieun touches him.
When I packed my bag and went out of the education center, Ji-eun started chattering as if nothing had happened.
Saying a lot of useless words like that the autumn leaves are pretty, I wonder if there are cats on the squirrel road today… … I couldn’t know as much as today that I was doing this to relieve Yun-woo’s heart, not just to satisfy his boredom.
The voice that makes you laugh intentionally, the eyes that still have a red light… … All of that, it was so lovely to Yoon-woo now.
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 90

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