Paranoid Love Affair 88
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 88

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“that… … It’s not really a big deal. Hyerim and Yunwoo went out for a drink once… … .”
“Does Yoon-woo Lee know how to drink too?”
Saebyeol seemed unwilling to hide the discomfort in her voice.
It was clearly a tone that criticized Yun-woo.
Even so, he doesn’t have to look at Yun-woo, but instead talks with Ji-eun.
People who criticize Yun-woo are always like that.
With Yun-woo in front of them, they talk among themselves… … Knowing that Yun-woo isn’t deaf, and that their voices are getting into Yun-woo’s ears… … .
Come to think of it, they just want Yun-woo to get hurt.
You need an opponent who won’t resist even when bitten.
“I didn’t drink well… … That’s right, my dear Don’t be too sad that Yunwoo doesn’t get along. Because Yun-woo really hates crowds, right? maybe so… … .”
“There was a time when the two of you asked us to meet. Just like Hyerim Jo. But at that time, he said he didn’t like it because he didn’t have the money.”
“Uh, that’s… … It’s like that every day for me.”
“Every day? Do you meet Lee Yoon-woo every day?”
“Uh, huh? Oh… … .”
“… … is it so. Well, it could be. No matter how you meet someone, I don’t mind… … .”
A story about Yun-woo, who cannot intervene… … It was a conversation I didn’t want to hear.
I don’t know why the school elevator is so slow.
If only I could go into the classroom and lie down and pretend to be dead… … .
“But. Does senior Ji-eun know that? Jo Hye-rim and Lee Yoon-woo are dating.”
“uh? what is that… … .”
“You didn’t even know? A friend of mine in a modern business administration class told me about it yesterday. The two of us in class… … I couldn’t be so kind… … Is not it? Yoon-Woo Lee? Am I right?”
Eventually, the arrow flew directly to Yun-woo.
It was a difficult situation.
These people, who are crammed into the elevator, must be listening to Saebyeol’s story right now.
How much fun are you having?
As proof of that, no one in the elevator was taking out their cell phone.
The modern business administration class had more than 400 students, and 3 subjects were classified as core liberal arts subjects that must be taken until graduation.
However, I didn’t know that rumors would really spread.
I never thought I’d get into Saebyeol’s ears so quickly.
Hyerim said.
Don’t be afraid to deny it and let them pass. But is that really a good choice?
What is Saebyeol’s intention to ask such a question?
What answer do you want?
However, while Yun-woo was silent, neither affirming nor denying, the elevator arrived on the third floor, and Saebyeol seemed to have accepted Yun-woo’s silence as a positive meaning.
“like that. also.”
From the elevator door to the lecture hall, walking the distance that was about 20 steps in Yun-woo’s stride, there was no word from Yun-woo, Ji-eun, and Saebyeol.
Then, as Ji-eun and Ji-eun walked into the opposite classroom and parted, a small self-talk from Saebyeol reached Yun-woo’s ears.
“So you didn’t even see it. like me… … .”
Saebyeol calls herself ‘something like me’.
I couldn’t believe the words came out of her mouth full of self-esteem.
Something is wrong.
Something seems to have gone terribly wrong.
Yun-woo did not know how to properly understand what was going on in the minds of others, but he could easily see that the air around him was distorting.
Whenever I thought, ‘Why are these words coming out of this person’s mouth?’, a very difficult situation for Yun-woo would come sooner or later.
With that thought in mind, Yoon-woo tried to talk to Saebyeol, who entered the lecture room, in a hurry.
“You’re like me… … there… … .”
“it’s okay. Stop talking now.”
Saebyeol’s voice saying that was the coldest of all her voices Yunwoo had ever heard.
There was no more chance for Yun-woo.
This is because as soon as Saebyeol entered the classroom, he started talking and greeting his friends.
In the end, Yoon-woo quietly sat down on the desk and closed his eyes.
Loud noises filled the classroom… … Why is everyone talking like that?
Whenever I noticed that the names of Yun-woo and Hye-rim were mixed in the story, the thought that maybe everyone in this classroom was blaming Yun-woo for something else weighed heavily on Yun-woo’s lungs and heart.
“As I said before, the midterm exam is replaced with homework. Are there any evaluation criteria that were discussed in class? We talked a lot about things we need to pay attention to in order to become a good article, right? With that in mind, you can upload it to the blackboard. The deadline is generously until the Monday of the week following the end of the midterm exam period… … .”
There were still 20 minutes before class was over, and for some reason the professor had already begun to give the announcement.
“I’m a very busy freshman, but it’s hard for everyone if a class of only 2 credits requires too much stuff, right? So, besides the midterm exam period, which is normally closed, I am trying to finish it a little early before that. I’m going to finish two classes today and next week early, so go and study for your exams well… … .”
Hearing the professor’s announcement, cheers erupted from all over the classroom.
Everyone had a happy face.
Why the hell do you like it? everyone?
It was something that Yun-woo could not understand.
Of course, it is good that class ends early.
But now, the people who are taking this essential liberal arts class, thinking and expression are all economics students belonging to the same class, and all the students in this class, right after this class, there is another essential liberal arts, practical English class.
So, just because this class ends early doesn’t mean you can have free time right away.
There is only 40 minutes of free time until the next class.
‘Well, other people have a lot to do during that time.’
They have someone to spend time with.
So, you can go for a coffee for the given 40 minutes, go for a light walk while chatting with each other, or go to the waffle shop in front of the school where there is always a long line for a snack. Or, you can sit on a chair in the lounge on the first floor and study together while reading a book.
Yun-woo would be the only one who was uncomfortable with that free time.
Where should Yun-woo, who is alone, spend his time during that ambiguous time?
Should I just miss out on practical English like this?
And he goes to his original bedroom alone.
“Then see you next time, everyone.”
The sound of a chair being pushed back can be heard everywhere.
It’s too painful to be mixed in that noisy and fun group of red gwajam, so Yoon-woo sat quietly without packing any luggage, waiting for them all to get out.
‘Let’s just see a book here.’
If you think about Ji-eun’s attitude this morning, if she goes to her room without saying that she wants to be alone for only a few hours, what she might hear from Ji-eun.
Even now, he tries to control his life from morning to night, but he doesn’t know how Ji-eun’s attitude will change after doing such a thing.
If you can’t go back to your own room, being alone in an empty classroom is a good option.
As Yun-woo knows, there is no next class in this classroom, and the hallway will be quiet until regular class hours are over.
Yun-woo could have the time he had longed for alone.
However, this time too, it didn’t work out the way Yoon-woo thought.
“Lee Yun-woo.”
When almost everyone left the classroom, a familiar voice shattered Yun-woo’s hopes.
The owner of the voice was Saebyeol.
Ironically, bad forebodings never go wrong.
I thought Saebyeol’s atmosphere was strange… … .
“Speak to me.”
‘I told you to stop talking earlier… … .’
Saebyeol’s expression was never favorable to Yun-woo.
Rigid cheeks, wrinkled eyebrows, harsh breathing… … Yun-woo could easily figure out what the situation was.
It seems that Yoon-woo didn’t think deeply.
In order not to be criticized by others, he tries to live quietly as if he is dead without being noticed, but in the midst of this, someone is always trying to attack Yun-woo with something he didn’t expect.
So it’s always been like this.
Especially when I was in high school.
Someone who doesn’t even know his face comes up to him and pours insults and accusations… … In addition, Yoon-woo can’t explain properly, he lowers his head and waits for the other person to pass by.
Considering that most of those people were women, it’s clear that they are still in a similar situation.
“… … why?”
“why? Do you really not know for some reason? You are really shameless.”
And these people don’t even tell us about Yun-woo’s faults easily.
Then, after hitting and kicking Yun-woo until the moment is relieved, he returns with satisfaction only when he sees tears welling up in Yun-woo’s eyes.
“I was going to move on thinking it was just me, but the more I think about it, the more I get angry and hurt my pride. What the hell are you doing?”
“what… … .”
“What’s the sound of ‘what’? do you think you’re that good So, are you living with people you can relate to, people you can’t do business with, and people who share your life outright?”
Also, I don’t know what you’re talking about.
Yun-woo never thought of himself as good-looking, I swear he’s never been born.
But anyway, what’s the use of saying that?
When this happens, everything goes according to the intended sequence.
Saebyeol will only be angry with whatever comes out of Yun-woo’s mouth, and no one will listen to Yun-woo’s words.
People in the world always pretend to be rational and rational.
Whose statement is more credible, has a more persuasive basis, and is speaking as if it were important on the surface.
But in reality that doesn’t matter.
People listen to people who are closer to them, not to words with more plausible grounds.
The words of someone you like more.
The words of a person who is to his advantage to take a side.
Sometimes even eminent scholars do, but what about newbies in their 20s or so?
Saebyeol, who stands at the center of everyone, Yun-woo, whom no one likes, and whose words will be accepted by the world is clear and clear.
So, when hateful words about Yun-woo spread to people, cursing and accusing Yun-woo, and even playing very mischievous pranks on Yun-woo, becomes justified.
When that happens, people think that no matter how insidiously they slander and attack Yun-woo, they think they are very just and that Yun-woo must endure what they do.
So the result is obvious.
From now on, whatever Yun-woo says is nothing more than a formal procedure.
Saebyeol’s attitude will never change.
However, from the beginning, if he didn’t say anything, he thought it would only aggravate his anger, so it was Yoon-woo who spoke up for the first time.
“I never did.”
“No? how many times have i told you and to participate in events. Wanna go get a cup of coffee? Would you like to go have lunch? Would you like a drink? How many times have I told you?”
“… … .”
“I refuse to do that with all kinds of excuses… … I endured it even though it was embarrassing. ‘I think he was originally like this. Still, if you keep saying hello, one day you’ll be able to say hello first.’ I was thinking like that… … But don’t you go together with Ji-eun every day, and now you’re dating Jo Hye-rim from the Business Administration department? Last time we met at the bakery, I said no… … By the way, did I mention that you were still waiting for another woman?”
Newbyeol was scary
I remembered my mother.
The mother who drove Yun-woo into a corner and shouted at him.
In front of him, Yun-woo used to be denied everything about himself.
When Yun-woo bows his head,
‘Aren’t you pretending to see your mother when she said it? Do you look like your father, so I look like a dog poop? Live and live, now even the little ones ignore me.’
But if Yun-woo raises his head
‘Where did you put your head up in front of your mother? Why do you open your eyes like that? Would you like to hit one? You’re going to be flirting with women like your father in the future, right? It’s obvious, it’s obvious!’
I remember always worrying about whether I should bow my head or listen in front of my screaming mother.
Actually, there is no answer.
Just because people who hate Yun-woo hear what they say and change their behavior doesn’t mean they will like Yun-woo.
They just don’t like Yun-woo’s existence.
“… … I’m not dating him.”
“Anyway, you said you had a drink together? You say you don’t have money every day, but suddenly you only got money on that day? Did you even gift earrings to Ji-eun?”
Hye-eun gave me money, so I just suddenly got money on that day, how would you explain that?
I also bought the earrings with the money I had to put into savings… … .
unfortunate situation.
It’s clear that Saebyeol didn’t really want to have coffee or lunch with Yunwoo, or to have a drink.
This is because her behavior is the same as that of Hyerim, a fourth grader in elementary school.
It’s like being in the center of the crowd, coming to Yoon-woo for a while, saying a word or two to Yun-woo, and going back to his seat… … .
Does it feel that bad?
That he wasn’t the only one who extended a hand of sympathy to this poor and ugly Lee Yoon-woo.
He witnessed a beggar who had never received his enemy’s ships, seeking dongnyang from others.
“Isn’t that too blatant? Isn’t that really too much? I thought you really didn’t have money, and I even said that I would give you MTV instead!”
“no. It’s not really like that… … .”
“under… … Hey, am I that ugly? To the point where you don’t even want to say hello? So much that you don’t even want to say a word? Am I that much in your eyes?”
“… … Because it is not.”
“Even if I don’t like you, what did I ask of you for something big? Did you even ask to date? Eat rice, drink coffee, go to MT… … Isn’t that just what other college mates are doing? Even if the person you don’t like very much, it’s just what everyone does, right? but what are you Don’t you want to share that pretense with someone you don’t like?”
“… … .”
dizzy. As I hear a beeping tinnitus, my heart beats again… … The sound is too loud.
Maybe even Saebyeol can hear it?
“You don’t even answer me now. why? You don’t want to talk to a kid like me, don’t you? You really make people stupid.”
It seems that the blood from the head is draining out.
lust rises.
Surely now, his face will be white again.
Where does the blood that escapes from the head go?
Could it be that the blood that goes down the neck collects in the heart?
So maybe that’s why my heart is beating so loudly like this?
Could it be that the heart gradually swells and bursts?
“… … sorry… … Sun.”
“what? sorry? What are you sorry for? Are you acknowledging it all? what you did!”
“… … .”
“I’m shutting my mouth again. How are you human?”
‘Yeah.’
Why is a human named Yoon Woo like this? why live like this
It’s a misunderstanding, Yunwoo has never said that, he never thought of it like that, so there must be a way to explain this situation well.
Now, Yoon-woo is afraid of Saebyeol who is threatening Yoon-woo in front of him, and even his voice can’t come out properly.
I don’t think I’ll be able to breathe properly any time soon.
“… … sorry.”
“Lee Yun-woo, do you know that you are really unlucky? keep living like that Let’s see how well the school bow is. A bastard like you… … .”
Anyway, no matter what Saebyeol thinks of Yun-woo, her school life will not change much.
So, I just hope that this situation can be ended as soon as you like and leave the classroom.
Before Yun-woo’s heart beats faster, before his breathing becomes more difficult… … .
It was when Yun-woo was thinking with his head down.
“Hey.”
Someone’s sharp voice cut the conversation.
The sound came from the back of Yoon-woo, who was sitting on a chair in the classroom without saying anything and bowing his head, and Saebyeol, who was standing in front of the desk with his vision covered.
“What are you doing to Yoon-woo now?”
By the way, it was time for class to end.
The time for Ji-eun’s class, which was in the classroom opposite Yun-woo, to end… … .
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 88

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