Paranoid Love Affair 87
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 87

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“But what were you talking about?”
Ji-eun, when Yun-woo’s hair was dry, took hair lotion from her room (that was the first time that Yun-woo knew that there was a lotion that only applied to his hair) and applied it to Yun-woo’s hair, then parted it in the middle. I fiddled with it for a while as I looked to the left or right, looked down on my bangs, and turned it sideways.
Then, whether it was because he got tired of it, or because Yun-woo’s head had reached a state that Ji-eun was satisfied with, Ji-eun tried to playfully tap Yoon-woo’s crown a few times with her two fingers, and only then handed him a bag of medicine for breakfast and asked.
Yoon-woo was lost in his thoughts and stared blankly into the air, and only after Ji-eun handed him the medicine, he thought of a question to ask Ji-eun in a hurry.
However, the words Yun-woo finally brought out were quite far from what Hye-eun asked for.
“Oh, that’s… … What does your sister usually do?”
No matter how sweet the reward presented by Hye-eun, Yun-woo was still Yun-woo.
Yoon-woo wasn’t even brazen enough to suddenly ask a question like, ‘Do you like me?’
But is it really necessary to ask questions as Hye-eun made?
Shouldn’t it be enough to present only the evidence that can properly explain that Ji-eun doesn’t like Yun-woo, that Yoon-woo is a very insignificant existence to Ji-eun, and that Ji-eun only sympathizes with Yun-woo?
Hye-eun only needs to somehow get an acceptable answer.
“me? I usually go to school, drink, meet friends, go to clubs… … But these days, I don’t drink and I don’t see friends very often. I’m not even going to clubs… … .”
“… … What did you usually do when you were home?”
“Why is Yun-woo asking me all the questions in the first place? Are you finally interested in me?”
“… … .”
“Let me respond… … Well, when I’m at home, I watch a movie or a drama on the TV in the living room… … Or we played games on the computer in the room.”
“game?”
“Huh. I did some deciduous parchment… … don’t do it these days I didn’t feel like there was too much left, so I sold all the items and deleted them.”
“Leaf Alpine… … .”
“why? do you too?”
“no.”
“By the way, you didn’t have a computer in your room, did you? How have you been doing your homework?”
“I did it in the school computer lab.”
“Ah there… … So you haven’t played any games at all? If there’s anything you want to do, you can come to my room and use the computer anytime.”
“Nope. It could be… … .”
“Well then. It seemed like he would refuse to come into my room again. But I have a laptop too. I don’t use it except for homework, so I’ll bring it to your room later. Use whatever you want.”
“Then I’m so sorry. I have nothing to do with the computer. I don’t even have the heart to play games… … .”
“Even if it’s not a game, you need a computer, right? If you listen to econometrics in your sophomore year, you have to run the regression analysis on the program all day long. And what are you sorry for? You said that classical economics class notes were very difficult by hand… … I take my laptop and use it in class. Then it’s good for me too. I… … I can’t keep up with that class… … .”
“… … okay. thanks.”
The conclusion of the conversation Yun-woo barely opened up ended with Yun-woo receiving a laptop.
This is not it. This was not what Yunwoo wanted to say.
My heart was rushed. No matter what you say, a conversation can come and go to get a clue to Yoon-woo’s answer, right?
But Ji-eun shifts her gaze back to the book on the desk… … It was only then that Yun-woo had no choice but to speak up again.
“by the way… … There you are, sister.”
“Huh?”
“Aren’t you uncomfortable with me?”
“… … Why did you talk to me first… … Were you going to talk about it again? No matter what you say, it’s never okay. Don’t even talk about that room! I’ll have to go and secretly change the password or something… … .”
“No, no. That’s not it… … .”
“Then what?”
“Since my sister keeps taking care of me, I can’t seem to do what I usually do, so I just… … .”
“Is it as usual? Studying, watching a drama, meeting Hyerim… … Has nothing changed from usual?”
“You care a lot about me… … I can’t be alone… … Even now… … .””
“… … Sorry to bother you. Still, I have to do this to make my heart feel at ease. So can’t you just be patient? please.”
“No, it’s not annoying… … .”
Yunwoo didn’t have the ability to move the conversation in the direction he wanted.
Besides, maybe it’s because Yun-woo has done something in the past, and Ji-eun tries to end the conversation as soon as there is any hint that Yun-woo’s words are going in a certain direction.
So, in the end, Yun-woo had no choice but to try to talk again.
This time, a little closer to the main point… … .
“I didn’t mean to say that.”
“then?”
“Why does my sister want to do something like this… … I was just curious You don’t usually do this. no matter how… … Even if you see someone like me.”
“normally… … .”
Hearing Yun-woo’s words, Ji-eun shook her head without answering, but her gaze did not turn to the book.
In that state, there was silence for quite a long time, and Yun-woo’s heart had no choice but to become heavy.
Were Yun-woo’s words true?
So, did I offend Ji-eun?
If you think about it, it is absurd for a person like Yun-woo to talk about ‘normal’.
Probably because he is an expert in that field.
How much would you know if you knew that Yoon-woo, who had never met anyone and was confined to the corner of his room, was ‘normal’ in human relationships?
For Yun-woo to say such a thing, from Ji-eun’s point of view, his pride may have been hurt.
Still, because of Ji-eun’s personality, he wouldn’t swear at Yun-woo, and after a while he would pretend he didn’t hear Yun-woo and quietly shift his gaze to the book.
“Yes. Yunwoo, you are right.”
“… … uh?”
“Normally I wouldn’t do this. I wouldn’t be able to open the door to the house at will, and I wouldn’t force a male junior to live in my house if I happened to know the password, or if my junior didn’t contact me. Whatever I did, anyone could see, it was the same thing.”
“… … .”
“But, what if not? You woke up around 4pm on a Monday… … If I hadn’t, by then you’d be lying alone in that freezing room, right? Alone in that dark room… … .”
“Still, nothing would have happened.”
“Would nothing have happened?”
“… … It would have been just a little hungry, a little sleepy, and catching a cold. No problems arise… … .”
“Yoon-woo.”
“Huh?”
“My mother… … You said you hung your neck, didn’t you?”
“Uh, yes… … .”
As soon as the story of Ji-eun’s mother came out, Yun-woo regretted that he vomited at Ji-eun’s words.
The reason he threw up is because, in fact, Yoon-woo still had a resentment against Ji-eun for opening his door and taking him to the hospital.
The resentment of making a problem into a problem that wouldn’t have been a problem even if I left it alone… … But still, it wasn’t Ji-eun’s fault.
So, I should have just read a book and said, ‘Yes, thank you.’ … .
“But in my mother’s closet… … There were many other things besides the rope. The white barrel was full of unknown pills, pesticides, briquettes and lightning bullets. just in case. There was something else I didn’t find.”
“… … .”
“But in the end, she only used one rope at the last minute. Everything else was just there.”
It was too burdensome for Yun-woo to hear other people’s serious personal stories.
Besides, I had no idea what Ji-eun was trying to say, so Yun-woo kept her mouth shut and nodded her head moderately.
“lets think. On some days, my mother buys pesticides and puts them in the closet, on other days she buys briquettes and lightning bolts and puts them in, and on other days she gets a bunch of drugs… … There must have been days like that?”
“… … Is not it.”
“But even on that day, my mother would have told me to go to school well. I prepared a snack for me to eat when I came back from the palm trees, waited until I came no matter how late, and greeted me at the front door, telling me that I had a hard time studying until late today, wash up quickly and go to bed early. with a smiley face Because she always did.”
Ji-eun’s hardened expression… … The frown on the forehead, the two eyes of Ji-eun staring sharply as if they could pierce Yun-woo’s eyes… … .
“I don’t know when that was. I don’t know what day it was. Because it was a day when nothing happened to me.”
Tears welled up in Ji-eun’s eyes as he spoke each sentence with force, one drop, two drops, running down his cheeks.
Seeing Ji-eun like that, Yun-woo couldn’t say anything.
Even more because I slowly knew what Ji-eun was trying to say… … .
“But, did that really mean nothing? Was it really a day when nothing happened? Did the things in the closet mean nothing?”
“no… … .”
“On that day, what a miserable feeling you were alone… … What a sad thought… … I swallowed the medicine and slept for over a day and woke up, and what I saw in front of me was that dark and cold room… … How is it that nothing happens? How can that be a day when nothing happens?!”
“… … .”
“therefore… … There was no other way for me. In the eyes of others… … Even if I looked weird in your eyes, I couldn’t help it. I had no other choice but to do this now. It was the only answer.”
“still… … still there sister.”
“why?”
“You can’t keep doing this, can you? How long can my sister continue to care about me like this… … .”
“Why not?”
“There must be many inconveniences… … You’ll change your mind. It’s starting to get annoying for me to move around in this house, and there’s bound to be some things I don’t like… … .”
“Not at all uncomfortable. Are you comfortable? It’s better to have two people than to be alone. I love that you are in this house.”
“… … Can I keep doing that?”
“I will keep doing that.”
“But I… … I’m a man… … .”
“Are you a man? It’s not? How are you?”
“If no one else… … then… … .”
“Don’t think of yourself as someone else. stay comfortable Anytime… … .”
Saying that, Ji-eun went to the bathroom to wash her face.
How can you say something like that?
A person’s heart is something that might change right away tonight… … .
Besides, it’s not anyone else.
So what do you mean?
Does Ji-eun use the word “nam” differently from Yun-woo?
In Yunwoo’s opinion, everyone in the world who isn’t me is someone else.
Even if it’s family.
However, Yun-woo did not have the courage to say anything any more.
In the end, Yun-woo, far from saying what Hye-eun said, did not speak any more after that, and he and Ji-eun spent the morning talking only about studying for the exam and studying silently.
Still, the day seemed to pass without a hitch.
Except for Hye-eun’s words that keep revolving around Yoon-woo’s heart and the conversation she had with Ji-eun this morning, there were no factors that could disturb Yun-woo’s daily life.
Besides, today, which is Thursday, I only had to see Hyerim for a while at mealtime.
It was also easy to run away from Hyerim.
As soon as I finished eating and tidying up, I had to study for an exam, so I said that I would go to the classroom in advance and immediately left Hyerim’s house.
Is it because there was a guarantee that Yun-woo would not be alone because he was taking a Korean economic history class with Ji-eun?
Ji-eun was always right next to him, but when he buried his head in the book, there was no need to talk.
I didn’t have to put Ji-eun in my sight.
The trial period was a very good shield for Yun-woo.
I wish the day could just go by quietly like this… … That’s what I was thinking… … .
Yun-woo’s behavior and attitude were very easy to be misunderstood by anyone, so the things that could cause problems were scattered around Yun-woo.
And it seems that such problems arise for the most painful time.
It was after class 5.
It was when Yoon-woo and Ji-eun were waiting for the elevator together, after putting on slippers and looking elsewhere, Ji-eun fell down the stairs and entered the Culture Center.
Soji of such a problem came to Yun-woo’s back… … .
Perhaps the problem was that Ji-eun was too short to be recognized from a distance.
“Ji-eun senior!”
“uh… … Goodbye.”
“Hello, senior. by the way… … I am with Lee Yoon-woo again.”
“Huh. there… … I take classes like the 5th period. Korean economic history… … .”
“like that. Hello, Yoon-woo?”
“uh… … Huh. Hi… … .”
Again, pretend to know.
say hello again
Perhaps more closely than Hyerim now, when she was in 4th grade, I met a person in front of the elevator that I didn’t want to meet after Hyerim.
In an awkward place where we have no choice but to spend time together until we reach the 3rd floor… … .
Now, she doesn’t wear a hat, and she’s not dragging her slippers like she did when we met at the bakery before. Beautifully trimmed light brown hair, stylish trench coat and adult shoes… … .
Yoon-woo is always shy when standing in front of a nice and bright person.
It’s because the bright light that that person emits seems to accentuate Yun-woo’s humbleness.
It would have been better to just ignore Yun-woo and talk to Ji-eun… … .
“Senior, there you are. Yoon-Woo Lee Honey, you don’t know my last name? Does this make sense? It’s like a peninsula. Besides, it’s October now. Lee Yoon-woo Do you remember now? my last name?”
“… … It’s Mr. Moon.”
“I’m glad! Remember. It took a long time really… … Uh, but Ji-eun-senpai, what are those earrings? So cute!”
“Ah, this… … How are you?”
“Yes! I like her image as a senior and her hair style, it’s perfect.”
“Yes? I’m glad. thanks. uh… … .”
“by the way… … Why are you suddenly wearing earrings? … ? Everyone said that senior Ji-eun didn’t dress up and only thought about drinking so it was a waste… … I heard a lot around the saying that I want to try on some pretty clothes for my seniors. Especially among women… … .”
“Oh… … Yes?”
Even after getting on the elevator, Saebyeol did not think to stop talking at all.
Many authors were pushed to the point of giving a short answer.
But in that situation, Yun-woo was quite relieved.
It was because it seemed that Saebyeol would never talk to him.
But when was there ever a time when things in the world didn’t go as Yun-woo expected?
“Suddenly thinking about decorating… … I have nothing but love… … Do you have a senior boyfriend? Right? Was that a gift from your boyfriend? at Las… … .”
“Oh, no. What is my boyfriend… … .”
“Then, isn’t your boyfriend ‘yet’? It’s a gift, right? right?”
“uh… … That’s right, but… … .”
“Who are you? A lot of people would be sad if they knew that I had a senior. … Are you from my school? Maybe our class?”
“uh… … that… … Actually, Yoon-woo… … .”
“Yes?”
Moderately, Yoon-woo, who had turned his head away from Ji-eun and Sae-byeol and stared into the air, turned his head in surprise when he suddenly heard his name next to him.
“This… … Yoon-Woo Lee gave it to you? That Yoon-Woo Lee… … Senior then, maybe with Lee Yoon-woo… … Come to think of it, Yoonwoo Lee, your hair looks neat today… … .”
“no. It’s not, it’s just… … I had something to do with it. Thumbs up or something… … It’s not like that.”
“What would be a good thing… … I’m really curious. How the heck did he get so close to that Yoon-woo Lee, who couldn’t even remember my name properly for ten months… … .”
It was a sharp talk.
Saebyeol’s gaze was on Ji-eun, but the words were clearly aimed at Yun-woo.
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 87

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