Paranoid Love Affair 107
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 107

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“Right now?”
“Huh. Wear it and come out.”
“… … Can’t I try it on tomorrow?”
“tomorrow? why?”
“Now is… … I’m so tired… … .”
All you have to do is open the gift wrapper and try on the contents. It doesn’t require a lot of time and effort.
Nevertheless, Ji-eun could understand Yun-woo’s reluctance to open the wrapping paper.
Yun-woo’s heart, who wanted to keep the gift he received for the first time since he was born, as it was piled up on the wrapping paper, for a long time, then carefully tear off the tape and keep the wrapping paper. … Other times it might have looked cute.
But now, one hour is urgent.
After today, Hyerim might really go somewhere.
Maybe you are in the middle of packing your luggage for a while now.
So I might be leaving late tonight… … .
“Please, Yoon-woo. please… … It should be now.”
So Ji-eun said in a desperate voice like never before, as if pleading with Yun-woo.
On the day that I borrowed a cell phone from Yoon-woo and contacted Hye-eun, Ji-eun only talked with Hye-eun for two hours.
It’s not a short amount of time, but it will never be enough time to get to know someone’s personality and understand their behavior.
However, Ji-eun soon found out. The time he spent with him wasn’t just two hours… … .
-Will you do one thing for me?
-What?
As soon as Ji-eun answered Hye-eun’s question, Ji-eun’s cell phone placed on the desk vibrated with a loud noise.
Fearing that the noise would irritate the sensitive classmates because of studying for the exam, Ji-eun hastily pressed the call button and said.
“Oh, Hyerim? I’m a little busy right now… … . Can I call you later?”
[sister.]
“Huh?”
[If I ask you anything… … .]
“uh… … uh?”
At the moment when Hye-eun’s KakaoTalk content led to a phone call with Hye-rim, Ji-eun was only able to understand Hye-eun’s attitude.
Why does Hye-eun, who says she really likes Yun-woo, give up on Yun-woo so easily? …
The process of Hye-eun giving up Yun-woo was not an easy one.
What kind of person Hye-eun is, is there anyone else in the world who knows her as well as Ji-eun?
Her heart is like an elaborate statue carved out of ice.
However, people are dazzled only by the sunlight reflected by the statue, and do not know how fragile the material is.
Without knowing why the statue is beautiful, or how much time and tears were put into making each face and line of the sculpture, they approached and tried to touch it, or talked freely.
And at the very least, that’s what it says.
‘It was a really bright light.’
After all, those people do not know the true meaning of it. He couldn’t see anything because of the dazzling light.
Why it is beautiful can only be seen after the light has faded.
You have to wait a long time for your eyes to get used to the darkness, and you have to approach it carefully so as not to get hurt.
So nobody knows.
Because nobody wants to spend that much time on the other person. Because I am full of desire to hold something shiny right now… … .
Yun-woo was not a person full of such desires.
However, he was afraid of the light, so he did not turn his head toward Hyerim at all.
In fact, Yoon-woo is someone who knows Hye-rim better than anyone. If you are already accustomed to the darkness, Yoon-woo, even if you try just once to look into Hye-rim’s heart, you will be able to understand its beauty. Frightened, he always closes his eyes when he stands in front of Hyerim.
Hyerim waited in front of him for Yunwoo to open his eyes, and waited for a long time… … . Eventually, it began to collapse on its own.
[At that time, you got a birthday present for Yunwoo that you bought with your sister, right? it… … Just let my sister pick and buy them both.]
“what? Why? … I only paid half the money… … .”
[Let my sister choose the one she chose. For Yun-woo, that would be a happier day.]
“… … Doesn’t Yun-woo know that you chose it? At that time, when you bought a present with me… … You said you saw it while running around with Yunwoo, didn’t you? I even tried putting it on Yunwoo… … .”
[But you probably don’t know.]
“Ah, anyway… … You will notice.”
[Either way or not, it’s just a gift that my sister prepared by herself.]
“Why do you have to? It’s Yunwoo’s birthday, can the three of us spend it together?”
[If I am, I will ruin the place.]
“it’s not like that.”
[Yunwoo wants me not to be there, you know too?]
“… … It will change over time. If we stay together like this… … someday… … .”
[This is just a vague expectation. What will time do? Rather, as time goes by, everything just breaks down. I’m getting… … .]
“Hyerim… … .”
[If I keep doing this, I don’t think I’ll be able to do well. I don’t know what I’m going to say or what I’m going to do. Everything is only getting worse, isn’t it? If you keep lying like this… … I will leave more scars on Yun-woo.]
“It’s too hasty.”
[no. rather… … It’s too late. The person Yun-woo needs isn’t like me… … . I knew about it a long time ago, but I haven’t been able to accept it until now.]
“no! Wait a minute. I somehow… … .”
[no. Sister, don’t do anything.]
“what? why?”
[Now, at most, Yun-woo has come to believe in her sister… … . If I did something like that for nothing, Yun-woo might not be able to trust her unni.]
“Then why don’t you just tell me to stay still? Are you saying you just have to watch it all get messed up?”
[It’s not a mess. It will be resolved now.]
“What can be done? Yun-woo is like that, then you… … .”
[I live well on my own. I’ve always lived like that Exercising, watching movies… … . What is the world like these days? Even if I’m alone, I can do a lot of things and have fun.]
“No matter what world, no matter who you are, you are alone. And… … I want to keep being friends with you. When you are gone… … I’m sure I’ll be lonely I will always think of you.”
[Sorry, sister… … . Still, I want Yoon-woo to live a happy life. To do that, your sister needs to be by her side. And in that place… … I shouldn’t be there.]
“Is it really necessary? Could there be a better way? Isn’t there a way we can all remain in a good relationship?”
[Even if there is such a thing… … . Now it’s too blatant for me to come up with such a thing. I lied too much. Then I twisted everything. Yun-woo’s heart and mine… … .]
“Isn’t that what you meant? It was a good thing, wasn’t it?”
[I was wielding a heart that I couldn’t convey properly, and I just hurt Yun-woo. In that case, it would have been better not to meet in the first place. It was better not to have any feelings.]
“Isn’t everyone like that? Who knows all the good things to do? Who can control his mind like that?”
[Even if I can’t get rid of my heart… … I should have pretended not to have met you. Until the end, I should have watched from behind without revealing anything. If so, at least like this… … .]
“… … Yoon-woo will definitely notice. Aren’t you just such a weak kid? No matter what you say to him… … . You’ll know that it’s the gift you chose. The time you spent choosing Yun-woo’s gift, your sincerity, and Yun-woo will eventually know.”
[…] … It’s a vain hope.]
“no. Because Yunwoo is kind… … Because I’m not a kid who tramples on other people’s hearts… … .”
Even Ji-eun who said that was something he couldn’t be sure of. It was close to prayer.
Ji Eun-do and Hye-rim knew already that one could not understand other people’s feelings just by being kind, and that if that had been the case, Yun-woo would have been away from such a life long ago.
“Yoon-woo noticed that… … If everything goes well… … . On that day, the exam will be over… … Let’s eat vodka on a cake together. Because it goes well with sweet and high alcohol liquor… … .”
[…] … thank you, Sister.]
horses are light
As soon as it comes out of the mouth, it scatters in the air and disappears.
No matter how much thought you put into trying to get those words out of your mouth, what your thoughts are in them, you can’t reach the other person at all.
In order for one person’s heart to penetrate deep into another’s heart and resonate, and so that one’s world can flow into another’s world, it is necessary to jump over a lot of obstacles.
Even the human heart of Yun-woo was surrounded by walls that were particularly high and strong compared to other people.
Hyerim wanted to become a spear that could penetrate the thick cellophane that surrounds his eyeballs.
I wanted to straighten the support of Yun-woo, who had fallen down while looking at the ground. But for that reason, a human named Hyerim was so powerless and immature.
[If you can… … I really hope.]
As Ji-eun said, if Yun-woo understands Hye-rim’s heart… … It would be like a miracle.
The gray dust that scatters in Yun-woo’s world turns into pink cherry blossoms, the gray prison that encloses Hye-rim becomes a wide green field, and the world of Yun-woo and Hye-rim finally finds a point of contact… … .
But, like most things in the world, the things that someone most desires never come true.
It took a long time for Yoon-woo, who could not win Ji-eun’s Kang-kwon, to change into the clothes he received as a gift and come out of the room again.
Even though it was not particularly difficult to wear, it took more than 20 minutes, so it seemed like a lot of time was wasted opening the wrapping paper and organizing the boxes.
What was in the box was a bright cream sweater and black jeans that suited Yunwoo’s long and slender legs.
Does Yun-woo know how desperately there was in Ji-eun’s words to change clothes and come out?
“… … how?”
“Huh? uh… … Do you like it. The size is just right. I wonder how my sister knew my measurements… … .”
“… … Is that the end?”
As Ji-eun’s expression was terribly distorted, and her voice sank heavily, Yun-woo looked down to check her outfit, wondering if she had made a mistake or was wearing the wrong clothes.
But he wasn’t wearing clothes backwards.
Sweaters should be worn outside rather than tucked inside the pants.
Then maybe it’s because I don’t have enough appreciation for gifts?
Come to think of it, Yunwoo only talked about dimensions.
It is polite to say in detail why you like this gift and what you like about it.
“Well… … I think the bright cream sweater contrasts with the dark trousers. The design is nice and clean with a single color… … .”
“Who asked that?”
“uh… … then?”
“Are you really not thinking? Can’t you even try it on?”
“… … .”
Yun-woo had no idea what the answer Ji-eun wanted.
Ji-eun’s expression turned into tears as she watched Yun-woo, who just stood there with a bewildered expression, with her mouth shut.
“how… … How could that be? Yunwoo, you… … .”
Ji-eun is the only person left by Yoon-woo’s side.
Being hated by Ji-eun like that is the most fearful thing for Yun-woo right now.
Whether today will end as a good day or a day of terrifying despair is entirely up to Ji-eun. Not just today, but every day in the future.
I want to relieve Ji-eun’s feelings somehow… … . I hope Ji-eun doesn’t cry… … . Yun-woo didn’t even know why Ji-eun was angry.
“What the hell were those times for you? What the hell were you watching? What were you listening to? why… … why… … . You’re the only one who doesn’t know anything… … ?”
“that… … sorry. sister.”
Hearing Ji-eun’s sobbing voice, Yoon-woo, embarrassed, just apologized.
However, apologizing without knowing what the problem is is likely to make things worse in most cases.
“What do you have to apologize for?!”
“uh… … that… … .”
“What does apologizing to me mean?! If you don’t know, nothing will change in the end… … .”
Even though the sofa was next to him, Ji-eun slumped in the spot where he was standing, on the cold, bare, carpeted floor.
Then he cried out loud for a while.
Yoon-woo stood next to him and stood there, pondering for a few minutes whether or not to talk to Ji-eun.
“… … sister.”
“… … why.”
“What should I do?”
“… … .”
“What did I do… … What made you feel bad for your sister? … I honestly don’t know… … Still, I hope my sister doesn’t cry.”
Ji-eun looked at Yun-woo with eyes full of tears.
Yun-woo’s soft and gentle voice made me feel resentful today.
His soft voice, kind demeanor, innocent face, and his heart inside the enveloped appearance is as cold as ice.
Even if that’s not Yoon-woo’s true appearance… … .
So it shouldn’t be. Even if it is ice that will melt away when a warm spring comes someday, the wounds that sharp ice inflicted on others will not be erased.
In despair, Ji-eun let out her last hope in a voice that had no energy.
“mirror… … ”
“Huh?”
“Look in the mirror. Yoon Woo… … .”
The intention is unknown, but the choice not to follow Ji-eun’s words now was impossible for Yun-woo.
In fact, Yun-woo did not pay attention to the clothes he received as a gift.
I have to change clothes quickly and leave the room as Ji-eun tells me, because I spent most of my time tearing the wrapping paper carefully so as not to leave any tape marks, folding it, and putting it in the box.
Besides, Yun-woo didn’t like looking in the mirror very much.
Because he didn’t like everything he saw in the mirror.
When I thought of such a human being alive and roaming the world, I felt depressed and sinful, and I quickly turned my eyes away.
But now I couldn’t.
Something is wrong with the clothes she’s wearing, and Ji-eun wants Yun-woo to figure it out on her own.
What the hell is that?
Yoon-woo, who stood in front of the mirror, pondering for a long time, suddenly realized that the clothes he was wearing were familiar.
It even feels like wearing it yourself.
‘After all, Yoon-woo has long and slim legs, so these jeans look good on him.’
‘Yoonwoo, I think bright colors suit you… … .’
As soon as he remembered that voice, Yun-woo immediately opened the door to the room, went out to the living room, and asked Ji-eun.
As soon as Yun-woo left the room, Ji-eun jumped up from her seat and looked at Yun-woo with a nervous expression on her face.
“sister… … This dress, maybe Hyerim… … .”
“… … Remember?”
Ji-eun’s expression released as soon as she heard Hyerim’s name… … Perhaps the answer Yoon-woo found was the correct answer.
As soon as he realized that, the emotion that immediately came to Yoon-woo was displeasure.
It was because he didn’t want Hyerim’s traces left on Ji-eun’s gift.
“Did you ask him to choose?”
“… … uh?”
“this… … Isn’t that a gift from my sister to me? But did you ask Hyerim to pick one?”
However, it wouldn’t be a big deal though.
Come to think of it, Ji-eun doesn’t pay much attention to clothes.
So, choosing clothes was difficult, so I would have asked Hyerim for help.
Then nothing changes.
If Ji-eun was not involved in Hye-rim’s conspiracy, if the clothes contained in this dress were not Hye-rim’s malice, but Ji-eun’s pure wish to celebrate Yun-woo’s birthday, then this is still a birthday present from Ji-eun to Yun-woo.
But Ji-eun did not give Yun-woo the answer she wanted.
“… … That’s not it. Yoon-woo.”
That’s always the case with the world.
Miracles never happen.
Miracles do happen, and far from doing everything well, there are many cases where no matter how much effort and time you put in, no results are left behind.
It was still the same today. Ji-eun gave hints so that Yun-woo could realize everything on her own, in a line that seemed to break her promise with Hye-rim, but… … . To no avail.
Seriously, is there any way that Yun-woo’s twisted and hardened heart suddenly melts?
Let alone a hint, even if he held the correct answer sheet in front of his eyes, Yoon-woo would not know. As Hye-rim said, if Ji-eun moves to make Hye-rim understand, Yun-woo will send a suspicious look even to Ji-eun.
Then really… … Should Ji-eun stay still as Hye-rim said?
‘Tell Yunwoo a happy birthday, a lot.’
‘So that the day I will ruin doesn’t end as a day of pain… … .’
This morning, Hyerim said that to Jieun for the last time.
Without saying anything, the two of us lit candles on the cake and asked for a happy birthday party with Yunwoo.
Do you really need to keep that promise?
Hyerim said she didn’t want to continue lying to Yunwoo anymore.
But, isn’t this the biggest lie?
The fact that Hyerim doesn’t like Yunwoo is… … .
With Hyerim behind him, how could an evening spent alone with Yunwoo be a pleasant evening?
How could a world surrounded by a huge blackout of lies be able to shine?
“It’s not a gift I give you.”
In the end, Ji-eun decided to break her promise with Hye-rim. At the same time… … Despite the trust Yun-woo had for Ji-eun, it started to crack again.
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 107

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