Paranoid Love Affair 104
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 104

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Seeing the rabbit hugging Yun-woo’s head and telling him that everything is fine, Yun-woo thought that he had been saved by the rabbit.
However, it was the rabbit who was really saved.
Because of this, the rabbit was able to be reborn as a Hye-eun who can act as an independent person from an instrumental existence that needs to achieve its purpose and exit.
Yoon-woo didn’t want to show others his ugly appearance, gasping for breath while sitting on a chair, but for Hye-rim, it was more like a blessing.
‘Without Hye-eun, Yun-woo will have another seizure.’
‘No matter how much Ji-eun unnie exists, Yoon-woo is Ji-eun unnie and no one wants to believe anything… … .’
‘Yoon-woo needs Hye-eun. Not Ji-eun’s older sister or Jo Hye-rim, but Hye-eun… … .’
The existence of Hye-eun was a very good cause that made Hye-rim and Yoon-woo forgive herself for lying.
As long as Yoon-woo longs for Hye-eun, Hye-rim could think that continuing this false relationship was not done solely by her own selfishness.
As long as Hye-eun exists, Hye-rim’s desire to have a good time with Yun-woo and the justification for saving Yun-woo from depression could not conflict.
I could think that contacting Yun-woo every night and hearing his voice full of favor for Hye-eun was for Yun-woo, not to satisfy Hye-rim’s desire.
In retrospect, it’s all just hypocrisy.
After the rabbit became Hye-eun, Hye-rim finished the call earlier than before and told Yun-woo.
Don’t rely on Hye-eun too much… … .
However, while saying so, Hye-eun wanted her to depend on her more than anyone else, Hye-eun.
The words he gave to Yun-woo were nothing more than a package to hide his inner feelings.
The reason I ended the call early was because I didn’t want to ruin the image of Hye-eun that I had built up.
Contrary to the existence of a rabbit, which was a word that was thrown away, Hye-eun became the only person in the world that Yun-woo believed.
So I had to be more careful.
It is Hyerim who always takes medicine before talking to Yunwoo.
However, the longer the call time, the more intense the medicine, the more drowsy, and the mind becomes hazy.
In such a situation, while continuing the conversation with Yun-woo, he does not know what nonsense will come out again.
To say that dying together is love, so nonsense is more like a yangban.
After letting go of her mind, Hye-eun’s mouth speaks information that Hye-eun does not know and only Hye-rim knows, so a lie may be revealed and everything may go wrong.
In the end, Hye-eun was a hypocrite who spoke only bluntly.
And Hyerim kept pretending not to see it.
In order to continue the justification of acting as Hye-eun to Yoon-woo, Hye-eun made plausible words.
See Hyerim and Jieun again, their minds must be different from those of Yunwoo… … .
But on the other hand, there was definitely Hye-eun who didn’t want Yun-woo to change.
If Yun-woo continues to look at Hye-eun, believes only in Hye-eun, and clings to Hye-eun, wouldn’t it be okay if one day this relationship turns out to be a lie?
If Yoon-woo really believes in Hye-eun, if you really think that it doesn’t matter what kind of face Hye-eun has, wouldn’t it be okay for Hye-eun to take off her hood and wear Hye-rim’s face?
So, wouldn’t Yoon-woo’s faith and kindness toward Hye-eun be that of Hye-rim?
As I thought about it, Hye-eun became more and more biased.
The desire that Yoon-woo likes Hye-rim rather than Ji-eun was reflected in Hye-eun’s attitude toward Yun-woo.
I don’t know if Yun-woo noticed that… … .
Hye-rim, who became Hye-eun, was so happy that she had a conversation with Yun-woo.
I didn’t really want to give up the existence of Hye-eun.
Unlike when he first entered the chat room after the incident at the laundromat, Yun-woo did not show even the slightest concern for Hye-eun.
Considering Yun-woo’s attitude toward others, Hye-eun enjoys unreasonable privileges.
Besides, Hye-eun was able to hear a lot of words that she liked from Yun-woo.
And in that voice, there was no feeling of hatred or resentment like in the fourth grade of elementary school.
Every night, with that sweet voice, Yoon-woo is begging Hye-eun if she wants to keep on the phone a little bit more, can’t we contact her more often, or can’t we meet again?
Those times slowed Hyerim’s thinking.
However, it was not something that could be neglected for that long.
Yoon-woo only does what Hye-eun tells Hye-rim to do.
However, what Yun-woo did to Ji-eun did not reflect Hye-eun’s breath at all.
Hyerim, Hyeeun and Yunwoo, Jieun and Yunwoo, which one of them was natural, and which of the earrings Hyerim received from Yunwoo or the earrings Jieun received from Yunwoo shined more naturally and beautifully was obvious.
In the end, Hyerim gave her eyes to the question marks that persistently followed her, to those cruel family doors.
What if Hye-eun wasn’t there?
What if there were no rabbits?
If it wasn’t for Hyerim… … .
If Hyerim hadn’t met Yunwoo even when she was in 4th grade… … .
Ji-eun, who is in the same economics department as Yun-woo, and has broad feet, would have met Yun-woo in some form if it were not for Hye-rim.
Then, wouldn’t the day have come when we could have such a conversation?
‘Yoonwoo, aren’t you going to MT? why?’
‘Oh, senpai… … . I… … .;
‘Hey, did I say nonsense? How hard did I prepare… … . Are you really not coming?’
‘that… … I have no money… … .’
‘I spent three days and three nights writing the program… … . I missed class and made a quiz question paper… … . I had a really hard time… … . Are you really not coming though? really?’
‘Uh, uh… … .’
‘it’s okay. joy! If you don’t come, I won’t go either. I’m going to tell the kids that Yoon-woo Lee won’t go and I won’t go.’
‘Oh, no. do not do that… … .’
‘Are you going then? You know I’m going?’
The scene where Ji-eun gets to know Yun-woo was very easy to remember.
No matter where or how they met, Ji-eun would have somehow incorporated Yun-woo into the crowd.
And, that was what Yun-woo had always wanted.
But now the author can’t do that… … .
It’s because of Hyerim. The fact that Hye-rim likes Yun-woo limits Ji-eun’s words and actions.
Hye-eun, who asked to understand the hearts of those around her, was the cause of Yun-woo’s inability to see her surroundings.
Without Hye-eun, Yun-woo would definitely have looked at Ji-eun.
I would have had a drink with Ji-eun and made a lot of friends by going to MT.
The rabbit should have been Ji-eun, not Hye-rim.
Without Hyerim from the beginning, Yunwoo and Jieun would have been happy.
‘still… … don’t you know If Hye-eun is a little better… … .’
‘So if Yun-woo changes a little… … . We can all enjoy our college life together… … .’
He tried to persuade himself like that and struggled ugly, but Hye-eun had a limit.
The limitation is probably that Hye-eun is Hye-rim.
How can Hye-rim, who has never lived a happy life even herself, make Yun-woo happy?
Shouldn’t have wasted time.
It should have disappeared sooner.
Before the traces of the painful past came out of Hyerim’s mouth, before the wounded Yun-woo swallowed a lot of medicine… … .
Now everything is late.
No matter how hard I tried to tell the truth about my elementary school days, nothing changed.
Now, it seemed that all Hyerim could do, as a villain, was to leave Yoon-woo’s life cleanly.
It seemed like the best way to cleanly erase the dependence on Hye-eun and drive out the existence of Hye-rim, who is full of lies, who disturbs Yun-woo’s life.
‘Why did this happen? I just loved you… … .’
‘In the end, I didn’t. A kid like me shouldn’t have tried to interfere in Yun-woo’s life.’
‘Hye-eun, it would have been better if it was someone else instead of me… … .’
“… … Are you Hye-eun? No way.”
Behind the student center, facing Hye-rim, Yun-woo seemed to lose strength in her legs and collapse on the floor at any moment.
It was the trust in Hye-eun that was barely supporting Yun-woo.
Because Yoon-woo’s trust in Hye-eun wasn’t so light and weak that it disappeared with just a few simple words… … .
“Why not?”
“Hyeun doesn’t talk like that.”
“What do you really know about Hye-eun? When did Hye-eun ever show you her face?”
“… … You don’t have to see your face to believe it. I don’t know how you know Hye-eun.”
I don’t know, but it’s probably a trap.
Hyerim concocted a complicated conspiracy that Yunwoo could not imagine.
Maybe they’re trying to make you late for your appointment.
Even during this time, Hye-eun will surely be waiting for Yun-woo at Bordeaux Baguette.
“If there is nothing else to say… … I’ll just go Appointment time… … .”
“Well, no one has to go there? Hye-eun is right in front of you, right?”
“You are Hye-eun… … .”
“Did you ever think that my voice was the same as Hye-eun?”
“… … .”
There was a time when I thought that Hye-eun and Ji-eun’s voices were similar.
Also, I once thought that Ji-eun’s voice was similar to Hye-rim’s.
However, Yun-woo never once thought that Hye-rim and Hye-eun’s voices were similar.
Such a possibility was never even considered.
In Yun-woo’s mind, Hye-rim and Hye-eun had nothing in common, because they were a completely separate race.
How could that venomous Hye-rim be like that kind-hearted Hye-eun?
“… … They speak differently.”
“you’re stupid? You can change the way you speak, your accent, anything like that.”
“However, Hye-eun… … .”
Hye-eun is not someone who talks like that. Hye-eun is a person who only speaks warm and pretty words.
“At the beginning of this year, I don’t know why Hye-eun was still drunk? I really don’t know why you don’t drink these days and answer calls with a sane mind?”
“… … I said I was lonely back then.”
“Yes? Then, do you think I’m not drinking because I’m not lonely these days?”
“… … These days, because I am there, I feel less lonely… … I did… … .”
“You really… … did you believe that Yoon-woo, did you think you were that important to Hye-eun?”
In front of Yun-woo was Satan. He was an antiquarian.
That is why Yun-woo’s faith and Yun-woo’s existence are all crushed and tried to take his soul.
Otherwise, why is it like this?
Why do you mean today?
I received a gift package from Ji-eun in the morning, and I was thrilled to think that I might be able to have a birthday like everyone else for the first time when I turned 20… … .
Now, this time, it was time to have a face-to-face conversation with Hye-eun… … .
“You know why? For a while after entering school, there were too many classes and events. Cheering OT, MT, festivals, bowling ceremonies… … . Why are there so many events… … . I always had to be drunk in the evening.”
How could that be?
If that’s true… … .
“Did you really think I could blow a bottle by myself like an alcoholic? I don’t like that very much. Why are you drinking alone?”
Yoon-woo had longed for Hye-eun to be with him even during the day, but if that’s the reason why he couldn’t… … .
If it was because Hye-eun was chatting happily in the center of the happy crowd that Yun-woo always looked at with envy… … .
Yun-woo couldn’t accept that fact at all.
“no… … you never… … .”
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 104

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