Paranoid Love Affair 103
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 103

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Tonight, I ate chicken, but as expected, I would have seasoned it instead of fried, that the person living next door sings a song at 7 am, and the only stories that Hyerim had been telling Yunwoo as a rabbit were such cheesy noises.
That was Hyerim’s limit.
As she put up with being drowsy because of the energy of medicine and babbling all the time, Hyerim seemed pathetic to herself for doing so.
Yoon-woo’s reaction over the phone was always lukewarm.
After hanging up like that, Hyerim had no choice but to realize that she was a slick person.
‘How could I have been such a boring person… … .’
In fact, people who met Hyerim face-to-face always came to Hyerim with a smile.
So Hyerim didn’t know that making others laugh was so difficult.
Perhaps they were concerned about Hyerim’s appearance and had no interest in Hyerim’s contents.
Hyerim thought she didn’t like it, but… … If they had focused on Hyerim’s inner side, they wouldn’t have come to her with a smile.
In fact, what was inside the human being called Hyerim was nothing.
If people really live by looking at the essence of the subject rather than being swayed by the object’s appearance, it will only reveal that Hyerim is such a humble and pathetic person.
Who can you be attracted to?
Still, it was fortunate that the rabbit was talking so pathetic.
Because the rabbit is going to disappear soon.
Rabbit is a human with no reliable corner.
At least, that was what Hyerim thought.
He doesn’t reveal his face, name, age, not even a single thing, and he keeps uttering useless noises on a fictitious day… … .
In addition, the only thing the rabbit could talk about in a serious tone was the only thing that sounded like a madman: ‘To die together is love.’
It wasn’t really my intention to talk like that.
It’s just a word that came out of excitement because I was drunk on drugs and threw my mind away.
He was lonely and frustrated that day, and his hatred for his father just leaked out in such a bizarre form.
When I woke up the next morning and looked back on the last night, I was ashamed of myself for saying such a thing.
What on earth would Yun-woo think of rabbits?
It is said that dying together is love. Even if the words are true, the truthfulness of bringing them out of your mouth will disappear.
If you love someone, why would you want him to die?
Neither Romeo nor Juliet wanted the other to die until the very end.
And Hyerim also sincerely hopes that Yunwoo doesn’t die.
So I just thought that if Yoon-woo listened to the rabbit’s words, he would only think of it as the nonsense of a crazy person.
I was glad that I said it as a rabbit.
If you get to know Hyerim and Jieun, Yunwoo will eventually think about rabbits again.
As a rabbit, he said, ‘After you get to see the people around you, then choose yourself.’
There is a real person in front of you who is full of goodwill towards Yun-woo, so why choose a rabbit that is suspicious, whose purpose is unclear, and who only talks nonsense?
At the beginning of the semester, Hyerim was confident.
Even though it may seem like an exaggerated act in the eyes of a third person, if he showed his overflowing favor to Yun-woo, in the end, Yun-woo would naturally forget the rabbit and see Hye-rim.
After convincing Yun-woo, the rabbit had to quietly leave.
The existence of a rabbit had to quietly disappear from Yun-woo’s life, along with Hye-rim’s twisted heart, who accidentally spit it out.
If Yoon-woo gets along with Hye-rim in reality, I thought it would be like that soon.
Hyerim didn’t know that it was an idle thought.
This is because Hyerim didn’t really know what kind of person Yunwoo was, even after meeting for half a year as a rabbit.
I realized it too late. That the rabbit’s babbling noises were giving great comfort to Yun-woo’s life, that Yun-woo’s lukewarmness was the warmest temperature Yun-woo could produce… … .
‘Time will tell.’
When faced with a difficult task, people often say so.
But there are countless things in the world that time cannot solve.
People do not change even after time passes, and the mind that has turned around does not change on its own, but hardens in its distorted form.
Is there really anything in the world that time can solve?
In order for Hye-rim to know Yun-woo, or for Yun-woo to know Hye-rim beyond the rabbit mask, she had to step into the opponent’s realm a little deeper.
What would have happened if Hyerim had talked more about herself when talking to Yunwoo as a rabbit?
What if I could express who I am and how I feel more naturally before becoming Yun-woo’s college classmate during the day and bumping into Yun-woo’s favor?
However, Hyerim couldn’t do that, and in the end, for a long time, Hyerim and Yunwoo’s realm of life only slipped away from the thin outer shell.
So Hyerim could not have expected it.
That Yun-woo wouldn’t accept Hye-rim’s kindness that far, or that Yun-woo would trust the unknown rabbit more than Hye-rim or Ji-eun… … .
The rabbit Yun-woo meets at night wasn’t the real Hye-rim.
Hyerim, whom Yun-woo meets during the day, was not the real Hye-rim.
Hyerim, who could not be real during the day or night, seemed to have a hole in her heart, and the pleasure of spending time with Yun-woo and the satisfaction of conversation with Yun-woo seemed to leak through the hole.
It looked like he had a bipolar disorder.
During the day, he was drawn to his frantic emotions, and if he was left alone in an empty room without Yun-woo or Ji-eun, he drooped on the bed and could not do anything.
Always waiting for 9 o’clock.
As much as Yun-woo was waiting for the rabbit’s voice, Hye-rim was also waiting for Yun-woo’s voice.
In the daytime, Hyerim can never hear Yoonwoo’s sweet and soft voice… … .
After hanging up like that, Hyerim becomes empty again.
No matter how gentle Yun-woo’s voice on the other side of the phone was, it was because he wasn’t the one he was headed towards.
So, who are you heading to?
Who is here now?
What is a person named Hyerim?
If I had known that this was going to happen, I would have just pretended not to know Yun-woo in the economics class and in the modern business class class.
I thought I would only meet Yun-woo as a rabbit.
If that was the case, Hyerim and Rabbit would not have become so different to Yunwoo… … .
A human named Hyerim was gradually being split into several pieces.
Each of the pieces moved freely with will, to the extent that Hyerim herself felt like a completely different person during the day and at night.
At night, the conversation between the rabbit and Yun-woo was overheard by Hye-rim during the day, deep in her heart.
Then he realizes how cold and dry Yoon-woo’s attitude towards himself during the day is.
In the daytime, the rabbit was quietly peeking at Hyerim’s time with Yunwoo.
Then I felt very sad and sad at myself at night when I could not meet Yoon-woo in person like this.
In the end, no matter when or as a person she met Yun-woo, a corner of Hye-rim’s heart was bound to be bitter.
Still, I thought that time would solve the problem.
Slowly, I thought that I could narrow the gap between Yoon Woo’s perceptions of Hyerim during the day and Hyerim at night.
However, seeing Ji-eun getting along with Yoon-woo, Hye-rim realized that she was arrogant.
Hyerim thought she needed her in Yunwoo’s life.
I thought that I should be the light of Yun-woo’s life and that I should get Yun-woo out of the abyss of death.
I used to think that way too.
For more than half a year, Yun-woo really had only rabbits with whom to talk.
However, even if it wasn’t a rabbit or Hyerim, there was someone who would shed light on Yunwoo’s life.
Not a fake pretending to be a bright person like Hyerim pretending to be a rabbit, but a genuinely caring person who always makes others happy… … .
If Yoon-woo can regain his will to life just by meeting Ji-eun, if he can shake off the smell of death, then what will Hye-rim have left?
The need for the rabbit itself disappears.
The good cause disappears, and even if he uses all kinds of tricks, only Hyerim’s selfish desire to make a relationship with Yoon-woo remains.
It was terrifying to see himself like that.
It is no different from the beasts Hyerim has hated.
Seeing Yun-woo and Ji-eun lying in bed together, Hye-rim burst into anger, but after calming her anger and looking back, it was terribly disgusting to see herself like that.
Why are you angry?
What stake did he have in Yun-woo’s life, and with what right did he get angry?
What the hell is a foul?
I clearly know who the author is… … .
I know for sure that Ji-eun won’t use Yun-woo and won’t cheat… … .
If Ji-eun becomes a lover with Yun-woo, Ji-eun will surely make Yun-woo happy.
When he gets drunk and loses his mind, a dark inner heart filled with hatred and disgust slowly flows out of Hyerim’s mouth.
However, no matter how drunk he is, Ji-eun does not bring up things that are unpleasant to hear.
He is a person who can still put a smile on his face and continue a pleasant story.
It was something that Hyerim could not imitate no matter what she did.
Ji-eun gradually began to take the cause from Hye-rim.
The truth is, Ji-eun was the kind of person Hye-rim wanted to become while pretending to be a rabbit.
It is fundamentally different from the clumsy Hyerim… … .
If Ji-eun loses her cause, and throws away the selfishness that remains in her, what is left in Hye-rim’s life?
Hyerim’s gray daily life that will not change no matter where she goes or who she meets, the loneliness that fills the studio where she lives alone… … .
There is no one in this world who will die like Hyerim.
And for Hyerim, there was no longer any desire to die with anyone else.
Unfortunately, however, the story seemed to only go in the opposite direction for Hyerim.
Because in Yoon-woo’s life, Hye-rim wasn’t really necessary.
Yun-woo even said that he liked anyone who liked him.
Unlike Yun-woo like that, Hye-rim’s life now lost its meaning if it wasn’t for Yun-woo.
The situation was going the opposite of Hyerim’s original intention.
Yoon-woo only considered Hye-rim’s kindness burdensome, and showed excessive trust to the rabbit who only spoke nonsense.
That was the problem.
Yoon-woo is dependent on rabbits, and he doesn’t even pay attention to people he meets face-to-face during the day.
After that, Hyerim’s heart was always a battlefield.
There was Hyerim, who was a rabbit, and there was Hyerim, who was not a rabbit.
Hyerim, a 4th grader in elementary school, Hyerim as a college student, Hyerim breaking into her stepmother’s home as an uninvited guest, Hyerim depressed when she is alone, and Hyerim with strong self-esteem when she is with people all existed.
‘Yoonwoo needs me. Yoon-woo needs only me. you’ll love me soon And then it’ll be alright.’
It was a very dark and selfish part of Hyerim, a rabbit, to claim that.
‘It just made me think that way.’
‘If it weren’t for the rabbit, Ji-eun and Yun-woo, who naturally became friends with me, would have been in a much better state than they are now.’
The good and rational part of Hye-rim, a rabbit, and Hye-rim, who meets Yoon-woo directly during the day, countered that. However… … .
‘Did you become close with Ji-eun or me? If it was Ji-eun, would she have been able to get to know me?’
‘If we had met normally, would Yun-woo only become close with Ji-eun unnie?’
‘Then, later, Ji-eun unnie said she had a boyfriend and introduced Yun-woo.’
At those words, no other parts of Hyerim could open their mouths.
It is because it is an undeniable fact that Yoon-woo would never have appeared at Hye-rim’s drinking party if the rabbit had not encouraged it.
‘Even if that’s the case… … .’
‘My purpose is not to deceive Yun-woo. I didn’t devise a ploy to make Yun-woo my property. Yun-woo wanted to live a bright life… … . It’s not that I want Yun-woo, I just wanted to give it to Yun-woo… … .’
The human mind is complex.
I can’t say that this heart is red or blue.
All kinds of colors are intricately mixed or change moment by moment, sometimes assertions and grounds are mixed, and sometimes front and back are reversed.
Hyerim felt the same way.
At first, I thought it was for Yun-woo, but I thought that my heart was pure, but in fact, it was stained with soot of selfishness and possessiveness.
‘If a kid like me is by your side, can Yoon-woo become brighter?’
‘You want to give me to Yun-woo? Does Yoon-woo really need me? Does Yun-woo want me? Is it worth it to me? If it wasn’t for the rabbit, I would never… … .’
In fact, it was a bakbingin battle.
I also wished that the daytime Hyerim Jo, not the rabbit, would disappear.
‘Nope. this is a strong sale it’s a scam The rabbit pretends to be for Yun-woo, hoping that in the end, Yun-woo will depend on him.’
‘There must be no rabbits. Even if only Jo Hye-rim, whom Yun-woo feels burdened and hates, is left, the rabbit must not deceive Yun-woo any more.”
Still, that’s how it came to be in the end.
As the rabbit disappears… … Not going to the Bordeaux Baguette where Yunwoo is waiting… … .
Without splitting myself up anymore, I decided to approach Yoon-woo in the form of a perfect Hye-rim… … .
But, as always, it was a foolish Hyerim.
It was a weak heart.
I couldn’t get rid of my regret.
Yoon-woo, who was sitting alone at the meeting place, was worried and seemed to go crazy.
Is it really okay?
Can Yoon-woo live a normal life without a rabbit?
With that thought in mind, Hyerim eventually left the house early in the morning.
After looking at Yun-woo with a sad expression for a long time at the bakery window, I saw Ji-eun entering the bakery, and then rushed back home to prepare lunch.
Then, pretending to be okay, we stopped by a cafe and spent time together.
Having a conversation with Ji-eun, seeing Yun-woo taking a walk and eating rice, Hye-rim’s heart ached inside.
Even thinking that Yun-woo was dependent on rabbits seemed to be a mistake.
It seems that the rabbit was not an important person to Yun-woo at all… … .
Even that was a twisted mind.
That day, the ugly Hye-rim, who wants Yun-woo to depend on her, was sticking her head out all day.
That regret made Hyerim to follow Yunwoo once again after dinner.
It seemed that his heart would not subside until he saw Yun-woo, who was not well after the rabbit was gone.
and then… … Eventually, the rabbit saw the scene he wanted.
He noticed that Yoon-woo, who was sitting in the coin laundry chair, was in a strange state.
An undeniable sense of relief was welling up in Hyerim’s heart, who ran to the laundry after seeing Yunwoo having a seizure and unable to breathe.
‘look! Yunwoo still needs me!’
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 103

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