I hate the Communist Party chapter 177

“Look, Your Majesty. Doesn’t it feel different from Alexey? You are the daughter of me and Your Majesty.”

“I really, really worked hard.”

That’s the only thing I could say to my wife, who was smiling at me with her daughter.

Yesterday, she gave birth to a child after over nine hours of labor, but her face was irritable, but the emotions from her expression were joy.

At the time when she first married into a distant place, a winter empire, she was not a lady but had a strong feeling that she had just escaped a girl and became a woman.

However, she seemed to feel the kindness and dignity that comes from being the mother of two children and the empress of the Russian Empire. At least for me.

… … Of course, the modifier “the most beautiful woman in the world” fits better than the two previously mentioned.

“It’s hard work, whoo. Of course, I had a hard time. Even if I don’t know who I live, how long since I gave birth to my first birth, you cling to me so hard. In this way, I may have a fourth, not a third, next year or next year. Even so, he didn’t protect me during childbirth.”

“No, it was always for your health. Hmm, hmm! From the next childbirth, I will make sure to keep by your side… … .”

“look. Also, I gave birth to my second child yesterday, aren’t you already talking about the next child?”

I turned red. When I first thought about marrying her, I didn’t expect the relationship between us to be this way. I chose her at that time because it was strictly for political reasons.

In addition, the first meeting with her was not very smooth. For the first time in their lives, the place where they had to settle out of their hometown was so distant, and to the aristocrats of the Au-Hung Empire, who were proud to be the center of culture and arts, the Russian Empire was also recognized as a corner outside the mainstream of Europe.

Still sometimes, on the way to this place, I felt depressed because I didn’t eat much because I didn’t have a taste for it, and just before arriving, I remembered her first appearance, in which her emotions were overwhelming or her makeup was smeared with tears.

“But do you have any concerns, Your Majesty?”

“Yeah?”

“No, it’s because you’re feeling worse than when you first held Alexey.”

“Haha, I don’t know what your wife is talking about. look. How happy I am now.”

I tried to laugh at it, but I couldn’t fool her eyes. It was because her eyes looking at me were getting colder.

In my experience, it was rather comfortable to be honest when she showed up like this.

I don’t have more blame for what I’m talking about right now, but I’m sure I’ll get tired without knowing.

As soon as I looked into her eyes, I decided to sigh lightly and be honest.

“Woah, that’s right. Still, I hope you don’t misunderstand. It’s not because I’m disappointed that you have a daughter, not a son, or I don’t love this child less than Alexei. just… … .”

Since then, I’ve been talking about the news I heard before coming here, my feelings, and my concerns about saving my family and winning victory in the whirlwind of the future to come.

As the conversation continued, she carefully hugged her daughter and listened to me quietly without saying anything.

“… … Hmm. It’s a little embarrassing. Until now, I’ve pretended to know anything in front of you and shouted out to solve all the problems.”

Even now, I didn’t feel like I didn’t know what to do in the future or that I wanted to give up everything and take a rest.

However, when the news from the Far East and the birth of my wife overlapped, it seemed that my emotions became unstable for a moment.

“It seems like I was holding onto a difficult person and talking too heavy. First of all, what kind of careless behavior this is for someone who needs to take a break. haha. take a good rest. Don’t worry about today.”

She smiled at Yekaterina and heard her voice behind my back as I tried to get up and go outside.

“Do you remember the first time I met Your Majesty?”

I looked back at Yekaterina, but she continued, not looking at my face, but stroking her daughter’s head.

“In fact, at first, I resentmented your Majesty a lot. Think about it. The first long-distance trip I was born in was leaving my hometown and going to a country I had never heard of. Besides, the rumors about your Majesty were so scary. He has no blood or tears, and he has lost his feelings after the accident in Japan, and even the lovers who have been passionately in love with each other for a while are cold-blooded. The age difference between me and me is 11 years old. For a girl who had just grown up, it was like the world was falling apart.”

When she finished speaking, she raised her head, looked into my eyes, smiled, and continued talking again.

“I wonder how much you resent your mother who arranged to marry your Majesty. Maybe that’s why. The reason why I didn’t eat properly and ruined my makeup before meeting with His Majesty may have been the resentment of my mother at the time. It should be said that it is rebellion against a mother who chose ambition over her daughter’s happiness. It may also include the child’s thoughtless thought,’If you ruin the first impression like this, your marriage may be invalidated!’

“… … So do you still regret it now?”

Even though I was feeling that Ekaterina didn’t think that marriage to me was very good from the beginning, listening directly to the person’s mouth in this way was a different story. I could feel my voice sinking heavily by itself.

When she listened to me, she opened her eyes round, and quickly shook her head with a smile and replied.

“If you’re talking about that time, you’re right. But if you are asking my heart now, my answer is absolutely not. His Majesty cried and saw me messed with my makeup, and then took off the cloak I was wearing and covered my face. Was your Majesty’s words at the time probably “I’m sorry”? It must have been since then. It’s a way to see your Majesty as “a man”, freeing from the thought of “the person who makes me difficult and unhappy” or “the cold-blooded tsar of the Russian Empire.” After that, well, through so many things, I came to this day.”

“… … .”

Ekaterina looked at my still gloomy face and continued to speak in a playful manner.

“sure! Even now, there is one serious concern that I have because of your Majesty.”

“Can I ask what it is?”

“that… … .”

She blurred her horsetail and replied in a playful tone.

“I’m worried that our Alexey will have a forehead like you in the future. I would like to hope that such misfortune will not happen to my son by any chance, but if I look at the portraits of the tsars who have supported my father or the Romanov family… … .”

When she finished talking and pretended to wipe away the tears from her eyes, I had to react differently.

“Hmm, hmm!”

“Foot!”

When I coughed, I could see that she couldn’t stand it, or laughter came out of her mouth without knowing it.

I wasn’t able to do the big things because I was holding my daughter, but the atmosphere in the room was much softer than before.

After that light laughter warmed up the room, Yekaterina continued to talk, patting her daughter’s hair again.

“So, don’t be too much to blame yourself or push yourself alone to avoid putting a burden on me. I am also a member of the Romanov imperial family and I am ready to do what I need to do as Empress of the Russian Empire. If not, I can help you lighten your mind by telling me about your worries or thoughts for a while.”

“… … Thank you, ma’am.”

As I listened to her, I could feel the feelings of Ito that I had up until now or the burden of the future to come.

I made up my mind a few times so far and made up my mind again, but I thought I was used to it now, but I still couldn’t be an iron man.

Therefore, I was even more grateful for her appearance. As she looked at her with such gratitude, Yekaterina blushed and opened her mouth.

“I said earlier that I was ready to do what I would do as the empress, but it’s been less than a day since I gave birth to my second child, so it’s already difficult to do the most important thing for the empress, Your Majesty.”

“No, that’s it!”

As I responded in embarrassment, as I looked at her smiling and covering her mouth again, I thought I had been hurt again.

It seems that Alexei’s playfulness was not only the blood of the Imperial Romanov, represented by my sister, Shasha, but also her influence.

“Please be patient a little more. By the way, will your Majesty not name this child anymore? The first, Alexey, was decided by the name I thought, so it would be better for your Majesty to name our first daughter.”

When Yekaterina’s words ended, the name I had thought of before came to my mind, but I wondered if I could give that name to my daughter.

But for a while, worry. I soon decided to give it this name.

“Anastasia. I think Anastasia would be good.”

“Anastasia… … That’s a pretty name.”

She said the name I had spoken in her mouth a few times, then quickly looked down at her and whispered gently.

“Your name is Anastasia. Thank you for being with us for being born in this world, Anastasia.”

Looking at her smiling at her daughter and talking in a small voice, I felt like I could look at it for any length of time, but I quickly shook the temptation and called the nanny waiting outside the door.

“Today, I will go back to this. Rest is also important, so take a good rest and… … Thank you very much.”

After looking at her for a while, nodding silently with a soft expression at my words, I immediately stepped out the door.

It is certain that the time with her was a time of healing and relaxation for me, but now it was a time to get back to my daily routine.

It is a daily life of signing documents, such as asking for permission to give permission for a certain number of people died in a certain area today, and for a job that requires someone to be’cleaned up’ tomorrow.

And sooner or later, the storm that will blow in Europe will be the day to sign and add orders as if eating a document containing a content that is incomparable to the present.

At that time, a person’s life will be evaluated simply by the number written on the paper, and a document on how to drastically reduce the number of opponents while consuming less on our side.

However, even if that day comes, today’s memory will serve as a lighthouse that supports me.

And as long as I have this lighthouse, I won’t get lost and wander.

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