Paranoid Love Affair 110
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 110

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At least one thing is certain, behind the student center earlier, Hyerim shouldn’t have been sent like that.
The words that came out of her mouth were painful and terrifying. However, it was only 30 minutes long.
In just 30 minutes, Yun-woo threw away all the trust he had built up with Hye-eun for about a year.
Yes. It wasn’t Hyerim who threw the trust away.
It was Yunwoo.
How many times have I said that I would trust Hye-eun?
How strong were you?
But why let it go so easily?
Of course, there was such a possibility.
Because Hyerim is a devilish person, there is a possibility that she put Yunwoo into a corner with a clever lie… … .
However, Yoon-woo, who spent such a long time with Hye-eun, at least shouldn’t have stood still.
I should have run and grabbed Hyerim’s wrist.
That would have been a lie that could be easily confirmed.
I ran and grabbed Hyerim’s wrist… … I should have asked that.
‘Lie, there’s no such thing as a scar on your wrist.’
‘Why are you still wearing the earrings I gave you?’
It was Yoon-woo’s folly that he didn’t do that.
It was because Yun-woo, a weak and cowardly person, did not even think of taking a step closer to Hye-rim.
so you don’t know
So now, Hyerim’s face, lying on the bed with a sad expression, looks so unfamiliar.
“… … My friend swallowed the medicine.”
A typhoon was blowing in Yun-woo’s heart as he spoke with his cell phone.
It was a wind made of regret.
In front of the roar of the wind, even the malice morning glory that grew along the inclined support couldn’t utter a single word.
Was Hyerim, who was lying in front of her, really a witch?
Was it the villain?
The grounds that made Yun-woo think like that were the crude things that, like the styrofoam background used in low-budget dramas, that could be seen by anyone as a painting, would collapse if hit with a foot.
Still, Yun-woo believed it.
Because I couldn’t look properly.
Because he was scared and closed his eyes first.
But now, Yun-woo was behind the set.
The back of the Styrofoam background was a blank, unpainted paper, and Hyerim, the director and only actor of the obvious third-rate drama, collapsed after taking medicine and lies in front of Yun-woo.
Of course, she could have been the villain.
Her lies have nothing to do with Yun-woo, and the reason she wears earrings may have nothing to do with Yun-woo.
And now, for reasons that have nothing to do with Yun-woo, it may be that he is lying on the pill like this.
However… … How likely is that?
It’s a nonsensical story.
Now, if Yun-woo believes in such a possibility, that is just a stinkin’ excuse to keep only one’s heart.
Isn’t there a possibility that is easier to think of and is likely to exist?
The rabbit has always been, really, truly, Yun-woo’s friend!
However, Yun-woo’s suspicions made her fall asleep in this lonely darkness.
Then, on the day of swallowing the medicine, Yun-woo resented Ji-eun for opening his door at will.
I didn’t drink poison, but I explained in advance that it was a drug that wouldn’t die even if I took a lot of it, so if I slept and woke up, I’d be fine again anyway.
But now, Yun-woo was doing the same to Hye-rim.
He entered the locked room with his own password and was calling 119.
How could it not be?
How can you leave Hyerim lying helplessly in this room with torn medicine bags scattered all over the place and her sorrow?
How can you blind this room and turn your back to get out?
“As for where this is… … At Anam Station intersection… … .”
Where this place was, Yun-woo did not know until now.
This was not the Demon King.
It wasn’t even a witch’s hideout.
There were no witches. Hyerim in front of her was someone close to a princess who had fallen asleep with a curse.
Then no one else was the one who cast the curse… … .
“Sorry.”
“You… … I wasn’t that kind of person… … .”
While waiting for the ambulance, Yun-woo picked up the shards of medicine bags that had fallen randomly on the floor of the room.
Collecting it, it seems that Hyerim swallowed about ten days’ worth of medicine.
It wasn’t as large as I thought it would be.
In addition to the toothpaste, Yun-woo, who swallowed all the medicines in the medicine box, woke up in 28 hours, wouldn’t Hye-rim wake up a little earlier than that?
When Hyerim wakes up… … Yun-woo will trust her this time.
He will not listen to the voice of the devil who has settled in the corner of Yun-woo’s heart, covering the whole world with gray, and distorting Yun-woo’s cognition.
This time really… … This time… … .
It was at that time when Yoon-woo, who was kneeling on the floor, lowered his head with such a promise.
Maybe it was because Yoon-woo called her name a while ago, or maybe because he was walking around making a noise while picking up medicine bags, Hye-rim woke up for a moment.
It was a sleepy voice.
“… … Yun… … right?”
“Hey, Hyerim? Woke up? sorry. Come into the room and… … .”
Even Yoon Woo, who said that, knew that Hyerim didn’t fully wake up.
While Yoon-woo was arguing with Ji-eun like an idiot, while he was walking slowly here without taking a taxi because of his useless stubbornness, the medicines Hye-rim had already swallowed must have passed through the digestive system and absorbed into the bloodstream.
It is very difficult to overcome drowsiness in such a state.
You won’t even be able to tell if this is a dream or reality when you’re half awake.
On that day, Yoon-woo also woke up for a while before the ambulance arrived, and he was drunk and did not understand the situation.
He was only filled with annoyance that someone had woken him up.
So, I tried to pour out my anger at Ji-eun and Hye-rim in front of me. But it was difficult to even say such a thing, so only moans came out.
Isn’t Hyerim feeling the same way now?
Wouldn’t it be full of annoyance over waking up?
Yunwoo thought so… … . Again, this was the wrong idea.
This is because, in a state where it was difficult to speak out, the words Hyerim gave Yunwoo with all her strength were not like that.
“birthday… … Congrats… … Sun… … ”
“… … .”
“sorry… … The day… … lie… … .”
Hyerim’s words did not become a sentence.
Without even being able to finish her words properly, she closed her eyes and fell asleep again.
However, it was definitely true.
The earnest words deeply embedded in my heart, to the extent that I spit them out in a hazy state that I don’t even know if I’m sleeping or awake… … .
“You… … It was a rabbit.”
Yoon-woo’s heart, who had repelled any logical sentences, was only able to accept the words Hye-rim uttered in a weak voice that did not even end properly, as the truth.
“No. You were Hyerim. From the beginning… … .”
Hyerim never lied.
Even if it did, it would have been something very thin, thin, light, and playful.
Rabbit, Hyeeun, and Hyerim were all one.
Its essence was all the same, but Yun-woo just didn’t recognize it.
Yun-woo’s twisted self, who distorts and doubts his words for Yun-woo, and his actions for Yun-woo, sees Hye-rim as a huge and terrifying monster.
He had been listening to the words that came out of her mouth with an evil and cunning tactic.
It wasn’t the curse that Hyerim placed on Yunwoo.
It was a curse that Yun-woo placed on himself and a curse that he placed on Hye-rim.
‘look. The first snow is falling.’
‘That’s dust. It’s poison.’
‘I want to play with you. Let’s make a snowman. Let’s have a snowball fight.’
‘You came here to deceive me. They’re trying to kill me.’
Saying that, Yun-woo tightly closed his eyes. crouched down
So I didn’t know.
The person who wanted to make a snowman still hadn’t left Yun-woo’s side.
The fact that I was waiting by the side for Yoon-woo to open his eyes… … .
On the night that the ambulance arrived and Ji-eun, who was contacted, rushed to the hospital, the gray curtain that covered Yun-woo’s world finally began to collapse.
The intense light pouring through the cracks in the shroud began to slowly melt the frost that had fallen on Yun-woo’s heart, and the frozen heart entangled with all kinds of delusions.
So, what shape it was originally, and what color it was, it was only now that it began to slowly appear in front of Yun-woo.
also… … There was nothing like dust that fell from the sky.
“Yoonwoo, you go home first.”
“Nope. I will be there.”
“You only need one guardian, right? I don’t know what might happen… … It’s better for me to be a woman.”
“Oh… … is it.”
“It’s going to be like this… … . Even Hyerim is like this… … . Still, it’s Yunwoo. now you know What kind of kid is Hyerim?”
“no. I do not know.”
“you… … How can you still say that… … .”
“But it’s okay now. I don’t know… … ”
“Huh?”
That day, Yun-woo did not go home.
Without going to Ji-eun’s house, Hye-rim’s house, or his own shabby bedroom in the corner, he continued to walk around the hospital.
I walked and walked and thought and thought.
The moon hid in the clouds and reappeared several times, until the moon receded and the sun rose in the morning, and Ji-eun contacted Yun-woo that he could come back to the hospital, Yoon-woo was spinning around the hospital.
It is difficult to understand other people.
The image of someone in my mind and the real living partner are sometimes so different.
Therefore, understanding someone is a process of endlessly reaching a destination that can never be reached.
When I discover the other person’s new appearance and change the image of the other person in my mind to reflect it, the other person often runs forward and becomes a completely new image.
Perhaps, at the last moment of life, until the time you close your eyes, can’t someone never reach the reality of someone else?
Perhaps until the very end, the image of someone else I hold in my heart is nothing more than a small fragment of that person who actually exists.
In particular, Yun-woo is an inexperienced human being, so it took such a long time to get a small piece of Hye-rim.
However… … It doesn’t matter though.
It didn’t matter at all how big or small the opponent’s pieces I had acquired over the decades, or how many things I still didn’t know about them.
The reason Yunwoo had been so scared and trembling in the past was because he didn’t know that it wasn’t important.
So, he was just trembling because he was afraid of what the other pieces hidden by his opponent would look like.
So, even if someone gave Yun-woo a favor, it was often broken.
If you live on only the pieces that others have given you, your heart will collapse at any moment.
The moment the other person shows a different side from what I know, the back side of the person I don’t know looks so huge, I can’t believe him at all.
In order to accept other people’s feelings, Yun-woo needed to know, not what kind of person he was.
What Yoon-woo needed to know was his own heart.
It is sometimes more difficult to understand than a small fragment of someone else’s mind.
If you ignore it and leave it unattended, it will be distorted without limit.
Yun-woo’s gray world, because of the bitter cold there, it was buried in thick ice and its shape became unrecognizable… … .
It is something you will never see if you wait for someone to hand over your heart.
But without someone to give you a heart, you will never see it.
Why did Yoon-woo suffer from a nightmare about Hye-rim for 10 years?
There were so many other difficult things.
Why was Yoon-woo so worried about Hye-rim’s every word and every action?
Saebyeol’s words were quickly forgotten in my head when I was with Ji-eun, but why did Hye-rim’s words become a nail that tears Yun-woo’s heart?
Why did you stand in front of Hyerim, and the self present there seemed so small and shabby?
I’ve lived my life thinking that everyone hates Yoon-woo, but why did the fact that Hye-rim hates Yun-woo become such a big despair?
Just as the gray lumps that fell on Yun-woo’s world were not poisons, as if Hye-rim wasn’t a witch or villain, if we erase the distortion Yun-woo created, it would be… … It’s not really a fear.
Something very similar to fear, but never grayish… …
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It was 3 PM the next day when Hyerim woke up.
As soon as Hyerim opened her eyes, she realized that the ceiling she saw was different from the ceiling of her room and that she was wearing a patient’s uniform, and had an intuition that the plan had gone awry.
The more serious problem was that it was Yoon-woo who was sitting next to Hye-rim.
“Hyerim? are you on your mind? Wait, the nurse call button… … .”
When is now?
Is it Yoon-woo’s birthday?
Or the next day?
Could it be that Hyerim ruined Yunwoo’s happy birthday with Jieun?
Come to think of it, I think I had a dream in which Yun-woo appeared in my sleep.
I did my best to say happy birthday, but my own voice is so small that Yunwoo can’t hear the dream… … .
“… … Why are you here?”
“I was the one who called 119.”
“what? Did you come into my room on your own terms?”
“Sorry.”
“… … I don’t know what you were thinking when you saw my room… … . It has nothing to do with you.”
“Yes.”
“I was going on a trip… … just suddenly… … I just changed my mind.”
“like that.”
“… … So get out now ‘Cause I don’t want to see your face anymore hurry… … .”
The world is full of malice.
Nothing always goes according to Hyerim’s will.
One time is not enough, I have to say this to Yun-woo again… … .
But, it has to be like this.
It should not remain a clumsy lie in Yun-woo’s life.
It should not become an obstacle to the happy life of Ji-eun and Yun-woo.
Hyerim was so dehydrated because of Hyerim who was pouring out abusive language. How dirty must Yoonwoo feel when she faces Hyerim like this now?
How can I run out of the hospital with a look of energy again?
With that thought in mind, Hyerim looked at Yunwoo’s face, but… … Yun-woo still didn’t look away from Hye-rim.
Far from dying of grass, he spoke with a firm voice that Hyerim had never heard before.
“no. i’ll be here continue.”
“uh?!”
At the unexpected reaction, Hyerim was embarrassed.
However, the place where Yun-woo should be now is not here.
Yun-woo has to leave here.
Hyerim quickly forgets and goes back to her life… … .
“What the hell did you hear me say? I don’t want to see you either? Get out now!”
Why doesn’t Yun-woo leave the hospital room?
Why are you making me say things like this?
Why doesn’t Hyerim quietly forget Yunwoo’s memory?
Hyerim was so miserable that she started to have tears in her eyes.
And he bowed his head, not wanting to show it to Yun-woo.
Even with her head bowed, Hyerim continued to scream.
I ordered a group to get out.
I said several times that I didn’t like Yun-woo.
However… … However, Yun-woo did not go out.
This time, Yun-woo did not look away from Hye-rim.
She paid attention to the expression on her face and the voice she spoke with, one by one.
Ji-eun was right.
It was such an obvious story.
“It’s okay though. Even if you hate me.”
“uh… … .”
The Hye-rim that Yun-woo knows may be just a small piece, no more than the size of a fingernail, separated from Hye-rim.
However, Yun-woo was no longer afraid of the other pieces that Hye-rim had hidden.
The fact that he didn’t know Hyerim didn’t frighten Yunwoo anymore.
Not knowing is not something to be afraid of.
Who can know everything about someone else?
But the step towards understanding someone you love is always pleasant.
Even if that step will never lead to complete knowledge, the process that revolves around each other’s mind, that time, is happiness in itself.
You can tell if you pay close attention.
Even if we only know each other as small as a fingernail, every step we take to get to know each other, even the immaturity and ignorance contained therein, are all lovely… … .
“Even if you hate me, I love you. Hyerim.”
In front of Yun-woo who said that, Hye-rim could no longer continue with that poor lie.
Paranoid Love Affair chapter 110

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